It's been a while, but they are back...
Schizophrenia is a life long illness. The voices were gone for a while, but now they are back, and still claim they are the government. I had such a narley episode last night. I freaked out. After everyone went to bed, heres what I wrote down. Most of the notes are only of them speaking, they indicate when its me. And I'm sure they are hard to understand, being they are all pure thoughts and in thought land u don't really have to finish a sentence to get ur point across. Here goes, more later.
the input is unusually biased
and contraversial.
most think were evil.
were actual just people and merciful.
we intoxicate sometimes.
2nd:Obviously, we intoxicate sometimes.
We are ordanence of dead.
Our minds are raped with ecstasy, we shine.
Beautiful.
We're innocent people.
Lord have mercy on us.
...we start to dream off...
Lord have mercy on the contraversial.
ME: was that u or me?
What happened?
It's piercing.
ahaha.
I wanted to go to sleep.
They told me they had hardly started.
They are waiting for me to mindlessly talk.
I am so tired.
Marissa was evil of them. They had hardly been trained.
We're video taped.
We wish you would smile.
pain.
its contraversial.
lets make a toast.
who would u make ur toast to?
to Christian lights.
That is there only scripture.
ME:I'm tired.
I'm tired too.
we run from an office.
Thats very impersonal.
Im the only one to reach them.
Ur smart.
Ur temporarily smart.
It's all in ur attitude.
We're unrecognized people.
We're phychic people.
It's emotional.
We're the worst phychic.
Amissful.
it's pitiful.
Another topic.
Music's bomb,
Ecstasy permits school.
We can care.
its unnatural.
u can't proove ur message.
that's the point.
that surprised the government.
me: then who are u?
were inklings.
tattooed.
I have a flute.
We're pretty responsive actually.
we're material.
we're making, a really nice comic book.
me:so true.
Your personal life is conversational.
You don't even realize what u have?
me: what do i have?
a very intense relationship with organized reportings.
turn around.
ur computer is really important.
its more supposeded notes.
we never did acid.
it's versitile.
winded.
we're gonna get winded here.
me: talking too much?
you wouldn't believe.
were the meanest doctors in the world (said a bunch of really fucked up phyco words before meanest)
its contraversial.
they encourage me posting this on the internet.
Thats all up to you.
We are merciful.
me: merciful to who?
merciful to you leighton.
me:no.
we need to sit down.
we couldn't believe u recorded all that.
u sing madness.
can't nobody match that.
it's tough.
mission accomplished.
the government wants to see if i can whisper the song thats playing in my head in the background off all this.
The song is Uncle Cracker- Follow me.
They keep trying to bend my thought voice to whisper.
It's annoying.
We're Lauren, Christopher and Taylor.
Girl introdces her self as Lauren and then jokes around about Christopher having a mic all the time or not.
Ask the government.
me: how do i get ahold of them.
through signals.
proove it.
its an important topic for anyone involved in this society (CIA floats in background)
we are actually trying to research this particular emotional human being.
We patiently wait at a computer...
2nd voice:this sucks.
ahaha.
me:what are u waiting for?
conjunctions.
It's experimental.
We outdated our papers.
me:By how long if u dont mind my asking.
Back to Einstien.
We love ur attitude.
It's like calm and cool, its like everything is going well.
Everything is brillant in ur attitude.
me: how?
we can't answer how.
we're not that smart.
ahaha,
patience.
patience.
me going into computer graphics is pretty creepy to them.
it's an illusion.
Better word. Second word.
It's how history... It's power.
We sound really cold.
Theres actually no proof.
U scared the shit outta em wtih ur stance.
almost matured.
music has value to the government.
me: because music is a sign of god.
that answer is perfect.
you prooved it.
2nd:Leighton, u prooved it.
U proove is emotional.
We're evil from day one.
unrestricted.
emotional on our part.
me: why
its contraversial.
it stops the wandering.
if i would have responded with the words "thanks" its meaning in response would have been contraversial.
Theres are proof, isn't it scarry?
The proof to know how I feel.
Keep singing.
We're gaurenteed art.
Why am I not surprised?
Religions are not...
Ur listening to somebody else.
Me: I'm tired.
I'm running.
me:its 6:16am
For putting the time in, I'm surprised.
Full audience.
If u go to sleep ur missing out on the government, so blantently.
That's personal.
Californias the closest to reality.
we hardly ever see u.
Can u ever keep quiet?
u never stop.
me:stop listening.
our agreence is merciful.
We're head popular.
Sleeping is the return of think. That's why we like talking to you now.
I spoke emotional.
recording is emotional.
Priceless evil.
Another motherload.
For spirtual conversation.
u have it to jump on to black science.
me:thats contraversial.
nobody says anything.
Look how far uve tapped in.
Nobody has tapped in this far.
It's all in ur attitude.
Nobody asked me to stay.
Ur attitude is blind.
Emotional statement/sentence.
more of this type of typing.
me: ahaha no.
that way we dont infringe.
our art is emotional.
its really emotional.
me:im going to bed.
priceless.
u missed out on the government, the people, ur intrests, we're narley.
Our attach is awesome.
We're spiritchillll.
me:thats the worst office joke uve ever made up.
me;anyhow, good night.
rock on, sleep tight.
xoxo.
the input is unusually biased
and contraversial.
most think were evil.
were actual just people and merciful.
we intoxicate sometimes.
2nd:Obviously, we intoxicate sometimes.
We are ordanence of dead.
Our minds are raped with ecstasy, we shine.
Beautiful.
We're innocent people.
Lord have mercy on us.
...we start to dream off...
Lord have mercy on the contraversial.
ME: was that u or me?
What happened?
It's piercing.
ahaha.
I wanted to go to sleep.
They told me they had hardly started.
They are waiting for me to mindlessly talk.
I am so tired.
Marissa was evil of them. They had hardly been trained.
We're video taped.
We wish you would smile.
pain.
its contraversial.
lets make a toast.
who would u make ur toast to?
to Christian lights.
That is there only scripture.
ME:I'm tired.
I'm tired too.
we run from an office.
Thats very impersonal.
Im the only one to reach them.
Ur smart.
Ur temporarily smart.
It's all in ur attitude.
We're unrecognized people.
We're phychic people.
It's emotional.
We're the worst phychic.
Amissful.
it's pitiful.
Another topic.
Music's bomb,
Ecstasy permits school.
We can care.
its unnatural.
u can't proove ur message.
that's the point.
that surprised the government.
me: then who are u?
were inklings.
tattooed.
I have a flute.
We're pretty responsive actually.
we're material.
we're making, a really nice comic book.
me:so true.
Your personal life is conversational.
You don't even realize what u have?
me: what do i have?
a very intense relationship with organized reportings.
turn around.
ur computer is really important.
its more supposeded notes.
we never did acid.
it's versitile.
winded.
we're gonna get winded here.
me: talking too much?
you wouldn't believe.
were the meanest doctors in the world (said a bunch of really fucked up phyco words before meanest)
its contraversial.
they encourage me posting this on the internet.
Thats all up to you.
We are merciful.
me: merciful to who?
merciful to you leighton.
me:no.
we need to sit down.
we couldn't believe u recorded all that.
u sing madness.
can't nobody match that.
it's tough.
mission accomplished.
the government wants to see if i can whisper the song thats playing in my head in the background off all this.
The song is Uncle Cracker- Follow me.
They keep trying to bend my thought voice to whisper.
It's annoying.
We're Lauren, Christopher and Taylor.
Girl introdces her self as Lauren and then jokes around about Christopher having a mic all the time or not.
Ask the government.
me: how do i get ahold of them.
through signals.
proove it.
its an important topic for anyone involved in this society (CIA floats in background)
we are actually trying to research this particular emotional human being.
We patiently wait at a computer...
2nd voice:this sucks.
ahaha.
me:what are u waiting for?
conjunctions.
It's experimental.
We outdated our papers.
me:By how long if u dont mind my asking.
Back to Einstien.
We love ur attitude.
It's like calm and cool, its like everything is going well.
Everything is brillant in ur attitude.
me: how?
we can't answer how.
we're not that smart.
ahaha,
patience.
patience.
me going into computer graphics is pretty creepy to them.
it's an illusion.
Better word. Second word.
It's how history... It's power.
We sound really cold.
Theres actually no proof.
U scared the shit outta em wtih ur stance.
almost matured.
music has value to the government.
me: because music is a sign of god.
that answer is perfect.
you prooved it.
2nd:Leighton, u prooved it.
U proove is emotional.
We're evil from day one.
unrestricted.
emotional on our part.
me: why
its contraversial.
it stops the wandering.
if i would have responded with the words "thanks" its meaning in response would have been contraversial.
Theres are proof, isn't it scarry?
The proof to know how I feel.
Keep singing.
We're gaurenteed art.
Why am I not surprised?
Religions are not...
Ur listening to somebody else.
Me: I'm tired.
I'm running.
me:its 6:16am
For putting the time in, I'm surprised.
Full audience.
If u go to sleep ur missing out on the government, so blantently.
That's personal.
Californias the closest to reality.
we hardly ever see u.
Can u ever keep quiet?
u never stop.
me:stop listening.
our agreence is merciful.
We're head popular.
Sleeping is the return of think. That's why we like talking to you now.
I spoke emotional.
recording is emotional.
Priceless evil.
Another motherload.
For spirtual conversation.
u have it to jump on to black science.
me:thats contraversial.
nobody says anything.
Look how far uve tapped in.
Nobody has tapped in this far.
It's all in ur attitude.
Nobody asked me to stay.
Ur attitude is blind.
Emotional statement/sentence.
more of this type of typing.
me: ahaha no.
that way we dont infringe.
our art is emotional.
its really emotional.
me:im going to bed.
priceless.
u missed out on the government, the people, ur intrests, we're narley.
Our attach is awesome.
We're spiritchillll.
me:thats the worst office joke uve ever made up.
me;anyhow, good night.
rock on, sleep tight.
xoxo.