Sad Angel
I'm writing this entry as fast as I can because I wasn't going to write it because I'm too sad, but I decided to jot it down!
Yesterday morning we had to put my dog Chopper to sleep. She hadn't eaten in six days and was bleeding internally.
I went with my fdad to put her to sleep. I have never done that before. I was COMPLETELY traumatized... She was lying on blankets on the floor, and the doctor shaved her paw with an electric razor and then put the needle into her arm. She was watching the needle go in, and suddenly she just slumped to the floor.
Thats when I went crazy. I don't even remember... I just had a huge panic attack and couldn't stop screaming.
I was hysterical all day yesterday, and mostly spent the day and night sleeping, tranquilized by either Benadryl or Tylenol PM.
Now I am feeling OK but I didn't go to work. I slept until noon, thanks to the Tylenol PM!
Tomorrow I will have to venture back into the real world.
One of the worst parts is how confused my cat, Sammy-Joe seems! My dad had et Chopper out into the yard right before we left, and Sammy was begging to go out too. So he saw Chopper go out, but he never saw her come back in! When my mom came home from work she let Sammy out, and he started running around the back yard looking for Chopper. When he's been inside he's just been walking around the house meowing in a high-pitched way, like he's calling her.
Yesterday he, too, spent a lot of the day asleep in my arms.
I am so sad for him, because although I can rationalize that Chopper was very old and sick, and that she is now in Heaven with my other dogs and my bird... all Sammy-Joe knows is that his best animal friend is gone! In the seven years that he has lived here, he has never spent a single day alone, because Chopper was always there... and tomorrow, when I go back to work, it will be his first completely lonely day.
She wasn't just a pet to us... she was the BEST part of our world!
Love,
Angel
Yesterday morning we had to put my dog Chopper to sleep. She hadn't eaten in six days and was bleeding internally.
I went with my fdad to put her to sleep. I have never done that before. I was COMPLETELY traumatized... She was lying on blankets on the floor, and the doctor shaved her paw with an electric razor and then put the needle into her arm. She was watching the needle go in, and suddenly she just slumped to the floor.
Thats when I went crazy. I don't even remember... I just had a huge panic attack and couldn't stop screaming.
I was hysterical all day yesterday, and mostly spent the day and night sleeping, tranquilized by either Benadryl or Tylenol PM.
Now I am feeling OK but I didn't go to work. I slept until noon, thanks to the Tylenol PM!
Tomorrow I will have to venture back into the real world.
One of the worst parts is how confused my cat, Sammy-Joe seems! My dad had et Chopper out into the yard right before we left, and Sammy was begging to go out too. So he saw Chopper go out, but he never saw her come back in! When my mom came home from work she let Sammy out, and he started running around the back yard looking for Chopper. When he's been inside he's just been walking around the house meowing in a high-pitched way, like he's calling her.
Yesterday he, too, spent a lot of the day asleep in my arms.
I am so sad for him, because although I can rationalize that Chopper was very old and sick, and that she is now in Heaven with my other dogs and my bird... all Sammy-Joe knows is that his best animal friend is gone! In the seven years that he has lived here, he has never spent a single day alone, because Chopper was always there... and tomorrow, when I go back to work, it will be his first completely lonely day.
She wasn't just a pet to us... she was the BEST part of our world!
Love,
Angel