Chopper Update
Dear everyone,
The news is not good.
Chopper has been eating less and less. The dog who used to wolf down anything (including the cat's poo-poo) and was constantly begging at the table, now turns down even her favorite, liversausage. (Although this morning she did eat a few bites of my Cinnamon Eggo!)
She's also puking right and left. I got home from school at 12 today, and have spent basically the whole day on my knees, scrubbing pile after pile of puke off the rug. I also had to launder a throw rug because she got diarreah on it... So weird! She just squatted down and started pooping!
I refuse to give up hope though. I'm trying to make an appointment at a vet that does holistic work like acupuncture and stuff. I know it won't cure cancer, but there's hope that it could make her stronger... at least settle her nausea!
My prayer is that when she dies, she'll die peacefully, in her sleep. I've aldready decided that if we do have to put her to sleep, God forbid, I want to be there, petting her and holding her in my arms so she can spend her final moments on Earth with me.
But I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY don't want it to be that way! If she has to die, I want it to come naturally, not be something we actually schedule... like, "Okay, today we're going to take you to the vet so you can die!"
Ugh.
I was planning to clean my room today... My new ADHD coach has been giving me some tips... but I don't want to leave her all alone down here, so I am just going to read and do homework down here in the basement until someone else gets home. Then I'll go do some cleaning.
I am falling into major depression. I am falling behind in everything, especially school! I am not even sure I'll get into the special ed program for next semester... But if I don't, I'll just transfer to DeKalb because their program is much more lenient. I shoulda chose Dekalb in the first place...
Ugh...
I'm losing my mind.
With love,
from Angel
PS Caroline if you see Johnny tell him happy birthday from me! ;) (A day late and a dollar short, but still...)
The news is not good.
Chopper has been eating less and less. The dog who used to wolf down anything (including the cat's poo-poo) and was constantly begging at the table, now turns down even her favorite, liversausage. (Although this morning she did eat a few bites of my Cinnamon Eggo!)
She's also puking right and left. I got home from school at 12 today, and have spent basically the whole day on my knees, scrubbing pile after pile of puke off the rug. I also had to launder a throw rug because she got diarreah on it... So weird! She just squatted down and started pooping!
I refuse to give up hope though. I'm trying to make an appointment at a vet that does holistic work like acupuncture and stuff. I know it won't cure cancer, but there's hope that it could make her stronger... at least settle her nausea!
My prayer is that when she dies, she'll die peacefully, in her sleep. I've aldready decided that if we do have to put her to sleep, God forbid, I want to be there, petting her and holding her in my arms so she can spend her final moments on Earth with me.
But I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY don't want it to be that way! If she has to die, I want it to come naturally, not be something we actually schedule... like, "Okay, today we're going to take you to the vet so you can die!"
Ugh.
I was planning to clean my room today... My new ADHD coach has been giving me some tips... but I don't want to leave her all alone down here, so I am just going to read and do homework down here in the basement until someone else gets home. Then I'll go do some cleaning.
I am falling into major depression. I am falling behind in everything, especially school! I am not even sure I'll get into the special ed program for next semester... But if I don't, I'll just transfer to DeKalb because their program is much more lenient. I shoulda chose Dekalb in the first place...
Ugh...
I'm losing my mind.
With love,
from Angel
PS Caroline if you see Johnny tell him happy birthday from me! ;) (A day late and a dollar short, but still...)