Second Choice
I don't know why I let people treat me the way they do. Probably because I don't deserve any better. But why don't I deserve any better?
I saw a comment from a mutual friend of Sachil's and mine telling Sachil "Wow, I didn't think you would ever do that." Sachil's response, "I never felt this way about anyone before"
It just... struck something in me. Sachil and Miguel have both told me that I'm perfect, they could see themselves marrying me and spending the rest of their life with me, but they wish they met me after so they could experience other people. I told them both if they wanted they could date someone else and figure out if that's what they want. They didn't take the offer.
Miguel's been with his girlfriend for years now. He told me he was planning on marrying her. Sachil's with his girl. Brent has a new girlfriend. As glad as I am that it didn't work out, why couldn't it have been me? Why am I the one they treat badly until it's over and then they learn they should not treat people that way? Their girlfriends seem happy.
Same with my brother. I mean, we all got beat up growing up. I got it the most, my brother got it the least. I'm glad that my mom didn't beat up my brother nearly half as much as she beat me up, because I don't want him to experience what I've experienced. I've had my hair pulled, I've had my head, face, and body punched, I've been scratched, pinched, and I've been screamed at.
Why did I get treated badly and everyone after me were treated better?
I saw a comment from a mutual friend of Sachil's and mine telling Sachil "Wow, I didn't think you would ever do that." Sachil's response, "I never felt this way about anyone before"
It just... struck something in me. Sachil and Miguel have both told me that I'm perfect, they could see themselves marrying me and spending the rest of their life with me, but they wish they met me after so they could experience other people. I told them both if they wanted they could date someone else and figure out if that's what they want. They didn't take the offer.
Miguel's been with his girlfriend for years now. He told me he was planning on marrying her. Sachil's with his girl. Brent has a new girlfriend. As glad as I am that it didn't work out, why couldn't it have been me? Why am I the one they treat badly until it's over and then they learn they should not treat people that way? Their girlfriends seem happy.
Same with my brother. I mean, we all got beat up growing up. I got it the most, my brother got it the least. I'm glad that my mom didn't beat up my brother nearly half as much as she beat me up, because I don't want him to experience what I've experienced. I've had my hair pulled, I've had my head, face, and body punched, I've been scratched, pinched, and I've been screamed at.
Why did I get treated badly and everyone after me were treated better?