the answer is no
thats right he said no. he doesn't care. it hurts unexplainably. he just hung up on me too. i haven't seen him since saturday because he got grounded for hanging out with her all night after he promised me. i dont want to cry anymore. i tried to get over him. i always call back. its so not easy to give up once you've given them everything. he doesn't even care. he gets to see all the people that like that he's not with me every day and me not at all. how do i compete with that? the truth is i don't he's gone. i know it i just don't want to believe it because then i cry. the phone is ringing i wonder if its him... no. ofcourse not. it's such a rainy day. more depression than i need. i wish i didn't care. if you read this johnny make sure you get that i wish i didn't care! and one day i won't. the way you don't. everyone was asking me today if i was excited about going to prom and i said...didn't you hear? i'm not going. he asked someone else. yea wow. pain. what's even worse is how people think i don't care. i care more than he does! your idiots to think any different. so this weekend. i'm going camping. i was sort of excited. until he said no. he was supposed to go to arizona with me over the summer. he said i promise we'll be together by then. like usaul he promises. or maybe he'll just go back out with me because he won't be in school with his 'options'. he always says it though. hah did i mention this break was supposed to be 2 weeks long? ya then it jumped to four months. so far its been 3 but now its before june. hah is full of empty promises. promising he won't talk to her but he goes to lunch with her everyday, promises we'll be back together, promises he only loves me, promises he wnats to be with me. yea all signs are pointing towards no. which just means more hurt for me yes! so this weekend i don't want to ruin anyones time so i'm gona have to suck it up. well here's a plus everyone likes johnny now. hah how nice is that! you approve of him now that he doesn't want me. it seems so cold like there's nothing between us anymore. i hurt alot and i always think about the way we used to be and all the places we've been. i just wana kiss him. i just wana be able to say he's mine. whats so wrong with that? hah yay. more good news yea he has a hotel room for prom night. anyone know what happens after prom in hotel rooms? d***. just omg. i gtg.