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Monday I was on an serotonin kick. I think it's the tylenol I've been taking (watermelon =D ) and the banana I now eat in the mornings. But anyway, whatever it was yesterday it sent me on some sick sort of high. I felt incredibly care-free (not saying that I normally don't, it's just this was a whole new feeling of care-free..edness) and light and well, bouncy! It also helped that whilst Rupert stayed behind after auditions to receive his rightful role as David he learned that I too may have a role in the play. I was delighted. But today I kinda blew it. We were told to get into the mindset of somebody who's just realised she'll never see her brother again. We were given five minutes to prepare and then ordered to sit on stage for a minute or so and try to convey the emotion. I mean..wtf!! Those five minutes were interrupted with giggles..and whilst I was preparing to at least try and cry on stage people were actually throwing things around. The boys got a much easier job of it, all they had to do was look scared, but I mean..grief is a whole new thing. It affects everyone differently and to try and convey the feeling of loss on stage in a room full of distracted students is difficult, to say the least. Bah, I just decided to sit there for a while and look stunned, completely different from what everyone else did. Everyone gave these monologues saying things like "You said you'd never leave me!" and shit like that. I'm not sure what he wanted but I hope it was my way..Hope, indeed.
Tomorrow I've got another chance to improve.
Tomorrow I've got another chance to improve.