things are going...... well they're going....

[churlish_porter]

so i haven't written in a while thins are o.k i guess...
i've been crying a lot lately don't know why really just
have... work at ladies and gentlemen is fun... things with
craig are slowly going more down hill... i don't know there's
somedays i just can't be happy.. and there's others where i'm
in love with him... i really need advice on what to do about us
but the story is to long to put in here... i just don't know what
i'm going to do any more...

yesterday i went to find a prom dress after work at beachwood..
they all staired at me like i was a freak... i couldn't afford
pretty much every thing i looked at... i started to cry for no
reason on the way home and felt like such an ass hole... so me
and craig are going to aura farms today...

i got my car... it's an audi... i'm getting my license in about
3 weeks finally...

ahhhh i'm sick of crying one day and being happy and madly in love
then next....

i miss my friends... i miss do stuff with them.. i miss seeing
paul... i miss just going out... i miss do stuff on my own
with out craig... i miss being my own person... i miss my life.....