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Wow, big bad news came and blew my door in today, came at me angled and even though I knew it was coming, I never noticed the approach.
I'm feeling very...cloudy? I can't seem to get a focused feeling out, even though I know in my head the appropriate response choices I should be sifting through. I can tell that they are all there brewing in my mind, but if I try to attend to one or another, it slips out of comprehensive reach.
Been in this situation in so many ways, still kinda stings enough to make me shaky. Breaks like this are inevitable I guess in most cases, seem to always spark from insignificant events, and continually left to smolder till it burns. I suppose this is the adult version of kids being ostracized from peer groups and how troubled the heart is by being removed at the insistence of the majority.
Art is the bane of me.
I'm feeling very...cloudy? I can't seem to get a focused feeling out, even though I know in my head the appropriate response choices I should be sifting through. I can tell that they are all there brewing in my mind, but if I try to attend to one or another, it slips out of comprehensive reach.
Been in this situation in so many ways, still kinda stings enough to make me shaky. Breaks like this are inevitable I guess in most cases, seem to always spark from insignificant events, and continually left to smolder till it burns. I suppose this is the adult version of kids being ostracized from peer groups and how troubled the heart is by being removed at the insistence of the majority.
Art is the bane of me.