ive been housing all this doubt
hey kids. miss me? i love how i update so often. *nod* "the last bullet you mentioned is my one last shot at redemption and i know to live you must give your life away"
why do i find that "give your life away" part so hard? i say that's what i desire to do, i know in my heart that's exactly what i want to do, but why do i keep trying to raise my old self from the dead every single day? i hate who i was, but that's who i constantly keep trying to be. there are people watching me everywhere. what i make fools of us all with one moment of careless thought? i desperately need to be just like Him, b/c they see difference in me. they hear my claims. "what if i slip, will they catch me or watch me fall?" im cutting this short and leaving it pointedly. *nod* later kiddos.
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why do i find that "give your life away" part so hard? i say that's what i desire to do, i know in my heart that's exactly what i want to do, but why do i keep trying to raise my old self from the dead every single day? i hate who i was, but that's who i constantly keep trying to be. there are people watching me everywhere. what i make fools of us all with one moment of careless thought? i desperately need to be just like Him, b/c they see difference in me. they hear my claims. "what if i slip, will they catch me or watch me fall?" im cutting this short and leaving it pointedly. *nod* later kiddos.
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