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what the fuck have i done to myself? seriously, i fuck up everything in my life that i touch and that i love. i'm so tired of being sick and tired and i need to break away to escape to leave behind everything and say fuck this shit i need something better, i need to find something to destroy the feelings inside me, i need something. i fucked it up again and can't believe how fucking blind i am most of the time. i have this huge level of intelligence that i piss on and ignore all the fucking time. i need to change it, i need to escape to escape my rotten vices and my delusions of comfort and greed. i fucking hate this place and i hate myself today. i'm failing. i despise failure. break away, tear away. walk the walk.