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work has been real stressful. i hate working shit jobs so i can go to college but it must be done. some of my family have went through hell "real hell not crybaby hell" to be as successful as they are today. i'm not quite there like they were but i know the feeling now. but i'm content because soon i'll be what i want and i can leave this decaying city behind me. hopefully i can take some people with me. things have been real sad just because of moving out of my house which contained my life and many memories that i adore but also many memories of pain, suffering, and utter hopelessness. memories i can now let go of. it feels good to seek closure with some things i have never spoke of to anyone. so i guess i'm content for now. the only problem is that i want and need more now than what i have before. i desire more in my world. and i know it's not hard for me to get it. a few obstacles stand in my way but soon they will be over and forgotten. i'm sorry once again to those who might have wondered where i've been in the last month. but once in awhile i need to recollect myself. it happens to those who have mental problems but also have more balls than most. 3 years this month without being on medication. a small unnoticed to victory. i feel good about it.