My Philosophical Episode, In A Nutshell
I'm either going through a period of intense self-actualization or having a terrifying existential life crisis. Maybe a little of Column A and B. In any case I feel as though my entire belief system has unexpectedly gone into limbo like uh...as of Monday. And it's kind of overwhelming and I've suddenly started questioning everything I think and everything I do with my life and regarding a lot of things as very arbitrary and artificial and constructed that formerly seemed fundamentally secure in my mind.
So currently, this involves finding myself vascillating within this dichotomy of my day-to-day existence, which is so well-practiced I can do it with my eyes closed, and this other realm of introspection which I find persistently distracting me from my usual routine and train of thought. And this makes the rehearsed nature of daily life, while easy enough to continue living, nevertheless increasingly unsettling to me.
I have no idea if this makes any sense but I needed to articulate it. I need it to be understood but I can't figure out where to direct my confusion, or toward whom, if anyone.
I'm not panicked, I'm just sort of wide-eyed and awash...
So currently, this involves finding myself vascillating within this dichotomy of my day-to-day existence, which is so well-practiced I can do it with my eyes closed, and this other realm of introspection which I find persistently distracting me from my usual routine and train of thought. And this makes the rehearsed nature of daily life, while easy enough to continue living, nevertheless increasingly unsettling to me.
I have no idea if this makes any sense but I needed to articulate it. I need it to be understood but I can't figure out where to direct my confusion, or toward whom, if anyone.
I'm not panicked, I'm just sort of wide-eyed and awash...