"But are the memories mine, or hers?"
Yes, its been a stupidly long time between posts once again. I guess I haven't felt much like writing lately due to some pretty bad stuff that I have done. Feeling crap about myself is a great disincentive to writing about myself. No need to write about what I did. I feel better about it now, and in the good kind of "changed for the better" kind of way as opposed to the "obtain forgiveness, do something good to right the balance, and forget all about it" kind of way. There is a significant difference there. Too often I just convince myself I'm playing this game better than I really am. Lately I'm realising that I'm getting further and further away from the kind of person I want to be. As I said though, I am feeling lots better about things.
Ok, so how to summarise the stagering array of stuff thats been happening to me lately. I've been pretty anti-social as far as my friends are concerned. I'm not missing the lucky or SCA all that much, but I am starting to miss people. I really need to try harder to make it to things, since it wont be nearly as easy to do so once Vanessa starts living and working in Sydney. Lots of things are going to change once that happens, but our relationship will definately survive the challenges, and the changes will only be temporary. She is far too lovely and wonderful to give up on. It will be . I ended up missing spring war simply because too much other stuff was happening around that time and I just wanted a weekend by myself to chill. I ended up regretting that decision, and felt pretty bad about it afterwards, so I made a resolution to keep in touch with people. Remains to be seen how well I stick to this resolution.
Now, since the preceeding has already taken 24 hours to write, I switch to point form for the remainder.
* Vanessa and I (my grammer is win!) went out for a lovely dinner at the Bogey Hole Cafe. Very nice meal. Have to look after my poor hard working girl - exams for her at the moment.
* Going to see U2 play on Satureday night, going to be awesome!
* My Doc says that I need to fix my diet or I will be have heart problems and diabeties to look forward too. Aim to loose about 16 KGs - im going to wear a groove in the Fernleigh Track over the next few weeks.
* I'm putting a job application in for Google in Sydney. It would pretty much be my dream job to work for Google. I don't think my chances are too good but I'm certainly going to have a red hot try.
* Met lots of Vanessa's uni friends. Most of them are couples like us, but we are apparently the cutest couple, so its ok. Recently I've been to Lisa's Engagement party, Kathren's bday dinner, and a miscellaneous drinks thing. The people are all very different from my uni/sca/lucky friends (basically all of you guys reading) in lots of ways. But they are all lovely people, so at least thats the same. It does take some small amount of adjustment, but I think im fitting in gradually.
* Ballroom dancing is finished for the year... by the time it starts again Vanessa will be about to move to Sydney. It was lots of fun, hopefully we get the chance to continue it at some point in the future.
* I've been re-reading a series of books that I haven't read since I was in primary school. The Lone Wolf saga, by Joe Dever. Anyone out there know of it? Its brillient. Well actually, its not, the writing is terrible and lots of the plot is lost due to the fact that its a gamebook series. But the world is amazing, the bad guys are all so wonderfully diverse and chock full of dark evil evilness. The series has been out of print for around 20 years and my collection is worth something like $900 now on eBay. I've been looking for the companion books and the spin offs but they are just as expensive.
* Baccus got me back onto Kingdom of Loathing. Damm you Everyone should play, go there and sign up now, its a great game. Far better than that WOW crap I've been hearing about.
* Been spending lots of creative energy writing. Its going along very nicely, lots of plot developed, just need to stich everything together. Need to think of ways to make the world seem colourful and interesting - like Joe Dever does. My writing sucks too, not up to scratch with some of my heroes. Also, its so very hard just to find time to do it!
*Any other writers out there? Go have a read of these letters. An author wannabe wrote a letter to all the famous authors of his era asking them how to become an author. Quite a few wrote back with their ideas. Amazing stuff in there, some really valid ideas I think.
* Lana and Jason's housewarming party was awesome. Vanessa drove, allowing me to grace the assembled company with my drunken DDR. Saw lots of old Soft Eng chums again, and reminissed about old times in the computer labs listening to Russel Peters. Great night, shame we had to leave so early.
* Uncle David (Dad's older brother) came to visit a week ago. Intelligent man, lots of worldly experience. He wanted to know if the increasing population of the planet is contributing to the drought in Australia - since we are composed of 90% water or whatever that statistic is. Also wanted to know why the increasing population of the planet is isn't contributing to global warming since we give off so much heat. Clever ideas - uneducated ones, but clever nonetheless. I swear I could talk and argue with him for months and not get tired of it. The rest of the family think we are massive nerds now - which is about time.
* I bought one of those quacking duck puppet things from the junk seller guy that comes around to work all the time. Its a cute thing, I was going to give it to Damon, but he is total terrified of the thing. Ah well, nevermind.
* Politics is shitting me more and more all the time. Gah, I want to shake the rest of the country until it understands.
* Robin's Shadowrun is awesome, just awesome. I basically was having a fight club-esk schizophrenic (Jesus, somehow I got the spelling right on that one first go. I only bother to spell check the big words) episode - running around doing jobs for a figment of my imagination. Single best roleplay experience I've ever had. Not to mention the other stuff thats happening I can't actually talk about.
* Played and finished FEAR. God damm thats a great game. Streched my nice shiny graphics card to the limit. Loved the jumpy bit - ending felt a bit piss weak, I wanted to fight something nastier than farts with claws. While I was playing it late one night, totaly absorbed by the game, we had a blackout. It caused all the lights to go out, but all the TVs stayed on in a kind of crazy flickering static mode - Just like the Ring. I fully thought Alma was going to appear and use my soul for a tea strainer.
* Also played and finished Deus Ex, on Hard this time. Love that game. Go team Dragon-Sword/Cloak!
* I play too many computer games.
I think thats about all. I'll try not to leave it so long in the future. Sad to see a couple of people leave LJ land, hopefully said people keep reading and commenting. Love you all, take care, until next time.
Oh, and aussiemandias I'm FINALLY reading your lj, the way it should be. Can't belive it took me so long to get around to having a peek.
Current Food: Some Chicken thing sruffed with mascapone cheese and plum sause with vegatables. Oh and Sticky Date Pudding! (Diet? What diet?)
Ok, so how to summarise the stagering array of stuff thats been happening to me lately. I've been pretty anti-social as far as my friends are concerned. I'm not missing the lucky or SCA all that much, but I am starting to miss people. I really need to try harder to make it to things, since it wont be nearly as easy to do so once Vanessa starts living and working in Sydney. Lots of things are going to change once that happens, but our relationship will definately survive the challenges, and the changes will only be temporary. She is far too lovely and wonderful to give up on. It will be . I ended up missing spring war simply because too much other stuff was happening around that time and I just wanted a weekend by myself to chill. I ended up regretting that decision, and felt pretty bad about it afterwards, so I made a resolution to keep in touch with people. Remains to be seen how well I stick to this resolution.
Now, since the preceeding has already taken 24 hours to write, I switch to point form for the remainder.
* Vanessa and I (my grammer is win!) went out for a lovely dinner at the Bogey Hole Cafe. Very nice meal. Have to look after my poor hard working girl - exams for her at the moment.
* Going to see U2 play on Satureday night, going to be awesome!
* My Doc says that I need to fix my diet or I will be have heart problems and diabeties to look forward too. Aim to loose about 16 KGs - im going to wear a groove in the Fernleigh Track over the next few weeks.
* I'm putting a job application in for Google in Sydney. It would pretty much be my dream job to work for Google. I don't think my chances are too good but I'm certainly going to have a red hot try.
* Met lots of Vanessa's uni friends. Most of them are couples like us, but we are apparently the cutest couple, so its ok. Recently I've been to Lisa's Engagement party, Kathren's bday dinner, and a miscellaneous drinks thing. The people are all very different from my uni/sca/lucky friends (basically all of you guys reading) in lots of ways. But they are all lovely people, so at least thats the same. It does take some small amount of adjustment, but I think im fitting in gradually.
* Ballroom dancing is finished for the year... by the time it starts again Vanessa will be about to move to Sydney. It was lots of fun, hopefully we get the chance to continue it at some point in the future.
* I've been re-reading a series of books that I haven't read since I was in primary school. The Lone Wolf saga, by Joe Dever. Anyone out there know of it? Its brillient. Well actually, its not, the writing is terrible and lots of the plot is lost due to the fact that its a gamebook series. But the world is amazing, the bad guys are all so wonderfully diverse and chock full of dark evil evilness. The series has been out of print for around 20 years and my collection is worth something like $900 now on eBay. I've been looking for the companion books and the spin offs but they are just as expensive.
* Baccus got me back onto Kingdom of Loathing. Damm you Everyone should play, go there and sign up now, its a great game. Far better than that WOW crap I've been hearing about.
* Been spending lots of creative energy writing. Its going along very nicely, lots of plot developed, just need to stich everything together. Need to think of ways to make the world seem colourful and interesting - like Joe Dever does. My writing sucks too, not up to scratch with some of my heroes. Also, its so very hard just to find time to do it!
*Any other writers out there? Go have a read of these letters. An author wannabe wrote a letter to all the famous authors of his era asking them how to become an author. Quite a few wrote back with their ideas. Amazing stuff in there, some really valid ideas I think.
* Lana and Jason's housewarming party was awesome. Vanessa drove, allowing me to grace the assembled company with my drunken DDR. Saw lots of old Soft Eng chums again, and reminissed about old times in the computer labs listening to Russel Peters. Great night, shame we had to leave so early.
* Uncle David (Dad's older brother) came to visit a week ago. Intelligent man, lots of worldly experience. He wanted to know if the increasing population of the planet is contributing to the drought in Australia - since we are composed of 90% water or whatever that statistic is. Also wanted to know why the increasing population of the planet is isn't contributing to global warming since we give off so much heat. Clever ideas - uneducated ones, but clever nonetheless. I swear I could talk and argue with him for months and not get tired of it. The rest of the family think we are massive nerds now - which is about time.
* I bought one of those quacking duck puppet things from the junk seller guy that comes around to work all the time. Its a cute thing, I was going to give it to Damon, but he is total terrified of the thing. Ah well, nevermind.
* Politics is shitting me more and more all the time. Gah, I want to shake the rest of the country until it understands.
* Robin's Shadowrun is awesome, just awesome. I basically was having a fight club-esk schizophrenic (Jesus, somehow I got the spelling right on that one first go. I only bother to spell check the big words) episode - running around doing jobs for a figment of my imagination. Single best roleplay experience I've ever had. Not to mention the other stuff thats happening I can't actually talk about.
* Played and finished FEAR. God damm thats a great game. Streched my nice shiny graphics card to the limit. Loved the jumpy bit - ending felt a bit piss weak, I wanted to fight something nastier than farts with claws. While I was playing it late one night, totaly absorbed by the game, we had a blackout. It caused all the lights to go out, but all the TVs stayed on in a kind of crazy flickering static mode - Just like the Ring. I fully thought Alma was going to appear and use my soul for a tea strainer.
* Also played and finished Deus Ex, on Hard this time. Love that game. Go team Dragon-Sword/Cloak!
* I play too many computer games.
I think thats about all. I'll try not to leave it so long in the future. Sad to see a couple of people leave LJ land, hopefully said people keep reading and commenting. Love you all, take care, until next time.
Oh, and aussiemandias I'm FINALLY reading your lj, the way it should be. Can't belive it took me so long to get around to having a peek.
Current Food: Some Chicken thing sruffed with mascapone cheese and plum sause with vegatables. Oh and Sticky Date Pudding! (Diet? What diet?)