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Long distance relationships do not work. Maybe they do work for just a little while, but in the end they will all eventually fail.
I know this because ive been with (or been without?) Shanina for 8 months and counting. The break between semesters in June July will be the next chance we have to meet. Im not counting on anything tho, every other time we have tryed to meet something always happens to trip us up. The date has been put back 3 times now because of things getting in the way.
For those of u who have never been in a long distance relationship, here is an analogy for you: Imaging u are a little kid at the store. And your mommy lets u buy an ice block. You get the best one ever, its totaly wonderful in every way possible. U just cant wait to eat it. But mommy says
"Nono, wait until u get into the car, or u will spil it on yourself."
And you really want this iceblock right now, but u have to wait. Then you get to the car and mommy says
"Nono, not now! You will get it all over the car seat, just wait until we get home!"
So again u have to wait. And it looks better and better every time u look at it, so cool and nice. But u cant have it yet, u have to wait a little longer. So finaly the car pulls up to the drive... and then mommy says
"No, not now, dinner will be ready soon. Can't u just wait until after that?"
And no matter how hard it is, u still have to wait. And the ice cream is melting the whole time. Maybe u will get to eat it after dinner, but who knows, maybe it will be all melted away? U know that the ice cream would have been so much better if you could have had it staight away as soon as u saw it... but no. It wasn't ment to be like that. Maybe things would have been easier if you never even saw the ice block. Maybe u could have found a nice lollypop that u could have eaten straight away...
Im totaly convinced that Shanina is the most wonderful girl in the whole world. We are alike in so many ways, so many crazy little things that we have in common. She made me feel so good about myself, and she just made me feel so GOOD. I dont think another girl could ever make me feel as good as she does. I dont even think she realises what she has done for me. Im a whole different person than i was when i started with her.
The other day i was reading old emails and conversations we had back in the beginning, it was really surprising how much we have changed since then. Back then, we were so increadably cute, like two little kids learning how to kiss with one another. It was new and fun and interesting. We had so much to talk about, we never ran out of things to say. Now its different. I know everything it is possible to know about her, and she knows everything there is to know about me. When we talk we can only talk new things that have happened recently, so its just like reading someones lj. If it were real life we could go to a party, or watch a movie, or play checkers or something. But now, on the phone, we just sit there and listen to each other say nothing.
Ugh, this is a depressing post. Im sorry to everyone who reads it. Its even more depressing because i have no right to feel this way... Shanina must be feeling about 30 times worse than me. Her whole life might be about to be turned upside down, for the second time. She is being so brave about it. Last night i asked her if wanted to have someone closer to her. She said "No. I dont know. I dont want to talk about it.". That sounds like a yes to me. And she DESERVES to have someone close to her who can do all the things for her that i can't, and she is the sort of girl who could have anyone she wants.
She might even read this post. But im sure she already knows all the stuff im saying, and if she doesn't i think she should know. If u do read this, my little Iceblock, dont worry, im just letting some feelings out. Im not giving up yet :).
Ok, onto some lighter topics then. Dispite the fact that i have about 10 nicknames, i still couldn't beet Slanky's Battle Monkey. Its ok tho, with a little creativity, i managed to TIE with it.
Oh yes.. the lucky is tonight! Horay for lots of drinking! Its my turn for a lift in tralala! Me and leon have a deal going where we alternate weeks, so tonight i can get roling drunk. I have a test tomorrow, but who cares :P. I havent been drunk in weeks, i think the last time was when i saw Mav and Sarah out in town. Im going to miss training this arvo, my nan is cooking fish and chips for us. But is all good, someone will use my armor im sure.
By the way... just what is wrong with gay hampsters (hampsters, NOT mice) in little dresses? I thought that they were funny. I refuse to sucumb to peer pressure on this, the hampsters stay :|.
Thats all for now guys, sorry about the long depressing post. Take care all.
I know this because ive been with (or been without?) Shanina for 8 months and counting. The break between semesters in June July will be the next chance we have to meet. Im not counting on anything tho, every other time we have tryed to meet something always happens to trip us up. The date has been put back 3 times now because of things getting in the way.
For those of u who have never been in a long distance relationship, here is an analogy for you: Imaging u are a little kid at the store. And your mommy lets u buy an ice block. You get the best one ever, its totaly wonderful in every way possible. U just cant wait to eat it. But mommy says
"Nono, wait until u get into the car, or u will spil it on yourself."
And you really want this iceblock right now, but u have to wait. Then you get to the car and mommy says
"Nono, not now! You will get it all over the car seat, just wait until we get home!"
So again u have to wait. And it looks better and better every time u look at it, so cool and nice. But u cant have it yet, u have to wait a little longer. So finaly the car pulls up to the drive... and then mommy says
"No, not now, dinner will be ready soon. Can't u just wait until after that?"
And no matter how hard it is, u still have to wait. And the ice cream is melting the whole time. Maybe u will get to eat it after dinner, but who knows, maybe it will be all melted away? U know that the ice cream would have been so much better if you could have had it staight away as soon as u saw it... but no. It wasn't ment to be like that. Maybe things would have been easier if you never even saw the ice block. Maybe u could have found a nice lollypop that u could have eaten straight away...
Im totaly convinced that Shanina is the most wonderful girl in the whole world. We are alike in so many ways, so many crazy little things that we have in common. She made me feel so good about myself, and she just made me feel so GOOD. I dont think another girl could ever make me feel as good as she does. I dont even think she realises what she has done for me. Im a whole different person than i was when i started with her.
The other day i was reading old emails and conversations we had back in the beginning, it was really surprising how much we have changed since then. Back then, we were so increadably cute, like two little kids learning how to kiss with one another. It was new and fun and interesting. We had so much to talk about, we never ran out of things to say. Now its different. I know everything it is possible to know about her, and she knows everything there is to know about me. When we talk we can only talk new things that have happened recently, so its just like reading someones lj. If it were real life we could go to a party, or watch a movie, or play checkers or something. But now, on the phone, we just sit there and listen to each other say nothing.
Ugh, this is a depressing post. Im sorry to everyone who reads it. Its even more depressing because i have no right to feel this way... Shanina must be feeling about 30 times worse than me. Her whole life might be about to be turned upside down, for the second time. She is being so brave about it. Last night i asked her if wanted to have someone closer to her. She said "No. I dont know. I dont want to talk about it.". That sounds like a yes to me. And she DESERVES to have someone close to her who can do all the things for her that i can't, and she is the sort of girl who could have anyone she wants.
She might even read this post. But im sure she already knows all the stuff im saying, and if she doesn't i think she should know. If u do read this, my little Iceblock, dont worry, im just letting some feelings out. Im not giving up yet :).
Ok, onto some lighter topics then. Dispite the fact that i have about 10 nicknames, i still couldn't beet Slanky's Battle Monkey. Its ok tho, with a little creativity, i managed to TIE with it.
Oh yes.. the lucky is tonight! Horay for lots of drinking! Its my turn for a lift in tralala! Me and leon have a deal going where we alternate weeks, so tonight i can get roling drunk. I have a test tomorrow, but who cares :P. I havent been drunk in weeks, i think the last time was when i saw Mav and Sarah out in town. Im going to miss training this arvo, my nan is cooking fish and chips for us. But is all good, someone will use my armor im sure.
By the way... just what is wrong with gay hampsters (hampsters, NOT mice) in little dresses? I thought that they were funny. I refuse to sucumb to peer pressure on this, the hampsters stay :|.
Thats all for now guys, sorry about the long depressing post. Take care all.