Here goes everything.....
Dear Pa,
I have given this a lot of thought, and I've decided to move out on my own. Well, not exactly on my own, but with Erin and Gerk. I want to thank you for all that you have done for me since I moved here. You got me out of Mom's "nest". But now, I feel that it is time for me to be independent of my parents completely.
You said something in reference to Gerk a couple months ago that really hit home with me. You said that you didn't like Gerk because he has never given you a reason to like him. You said "He only wants to do whatever his parents will fund". That is actually more true of me than Gerk because my parents pay for my college education. You said "He wants to be an actor so bad, but how many auditions has he gone to since he's moved here?" I've been here over two years and I haven't been to a single audition and I want to act just as much as Gerk, if not more. So you could just as easily dislike me for the same reasons you dislike Gerk. The fact that Gerk is my best friend and you have such disdain for him really hurts my feelings.
Another reason I'm moving out is because I'm 22 years old and I don't really feel like an adult around you. I still feel like an 11-year-old who is allowed to make some choices, but only as long as you think they are the right ones. When I was planning on moving out the last time, you took it upon yourself to tell my mom about it instead of letting me be an adult and tell her myself. Well, this time around I've already told her about it. I'm not going to school this semester because I'm going to change my major from Hotel Administration to Drama, where I should have been the whole time. Hotel Admin. just isn't for me. And I don't want to get into that line of work because it will keep me from doing what I truly want to do with my life. I have spoken to many people about my situation, and the consensus is that I should study my craft, and I could possibly even get my MFA in Theatre and I could teach while I'm auditioning for parts. Acting students would be more tolerant of me missing a class if I need to miss it for an audition. A hotel wouldn't give me the freedom to do that.
I'm taking the semester off so that I can get a second job to save up some money. When I register for school again, I will be able to register as myself and claim only myself so that I will be able to get financial aid. I feel really bad for wasting my parents' money, but I will pay them back once I am able. I have people who believe that I can make it, so I know it is going to happen. Working two jobs will give me a chance to save up money and have more of a chance to get involved with a casting agency because I will have money to get headshots made.
We've thought about all of our expenses and have found that we will easily be able to pay for rent and utilities divided by the three of us. I'm paying off my jeep with this check, so I'll be able to use the money that I was once using on the jeep towards rent. Having two jobs will help me also take on any new expenses that may rise, such as a higher insurance premium if you take me off of yours.
I'm also going to be saving money on gas because I won't have to drive down south to see Erin anymore, and I won't have to drive so far east to hang out with Gerk. You asked me if I saved anything, and I haven't. I started thinking about why not, and I realized that a lot of it is due to getting ready to go up to South Fork (jeep tune up, oil change), and then gas getting up there, and buying stupid little things. If I'm on my own, I'll definitely be saving my money and not making frivolous purchases. I need to get out on my own and live my life for me. I'm not going to learn anything if I just keep on listening to my parents about what I should do and never make any decisions for myself. If I fail... I fail, and I just hope that my parents will be there to help me back up. Isn't that what parents are supposed to be for? To support their children in their endeavors? So I hope that you will understand why I've got to do what I've got to do.
In closing, I want to touch on a subject that I've never got to really talk to you about. You said that another reason you didn't really like Gerk is because I change when I'm around him, that I do things that I don't normally do and that Mom didn't even like him. You were disappointed with me when Gerk and I would go out to the bar because I didn't do anything like that until he got here. Well, I'm not a person who drinks by himself. I am a social drinker, so I only drink when there are other people around. I don't think that makes me a bad person. I think that you should worry if I were to ever sit alone at the house and drink by myself every night, but I never have. Mom's problem with Gerk was that I would always want to go out and do things with him. Back in Hawaii, there were always parties going on, or a bunch of Gerk's friends would be hanging out. Most times I would just be sitting at home by myself until Gerk called me to hang out. I don't understand how taking me out of the house and saving me from my loneliness is such a bad thing. It's not like we were out causing trouble. We were just socializing and having a good time. How I am around Gerk is just how I am. Gerk hasn't changed anything about me, he just brings it to the surface.
I am moving in with Gerk and Erin so that I can develop as a person and come into my own. I hope that you will realize that I had an excellent upbringing and that I will know to make the right decisions at the right time, even if you disagree that I'm making the right decision at this time. Thank you again for everything. I hope that I can one day repay you so that we are square in your eyes.
Love,
Casper
I have given this a lot of thought, and I've decided to move out on my own. Well, not exactly on my own, but with Erin and Gerk. I want to thank you for all that you have done for me since I moved here. You got me out of Mom's "nest". But now, I feel that it is time for me to be independent of my parents completely.
You said something in reference to Gerk a couple months ago that really hit home with me. You said that you didn't like Gerk because he has never given you a reason to like him. You said "He only wants to do whatever his parents will fund". That is actually more true of me than Gerk because my parents pay for my college education. You said "He wants to be an actor so bad, but how many auditions has he gone to since he's moved here?" I've been here over two years and I haven't been to a single audition and I want to act just as much as Gerk, if not more. So you could just as easily dislike me for the same reasons you dislike Gerk. The fact that Gerk is my best friend and you have such disdain for him really hurts my feelings.
Another reason I'm moving out is because I'm 22 years old and I don't really feel like an adult around you. I still feel like an 11-year-old who is allowed to make some choices, but only as long as you think they are the right ones. When I was planning on moving out the last time, you took it upon yourself to tell my mom about it instead of letting me be an adult and tell her myself. Well, this time around I've already told her about it. I'm not going to school this semester because I'm going to change my major from Hotel Administration to Drama, where I should have been the whole time. Hotel Admin. just isn't for me. And I don't want to get into that line of work because it will keep me from doing what I truly want to do with my life. I have spoken to many people about my situation, and the consensus is that I should study my craft, and I could possibly even get my MFA in Theatre and I could teach while I'm auditioning for parts. Acting students would be more tolerant of me missing a class if I need to miss it for an audition. A hotel wouldn't give me the freedom to do that.
I'm taking the semester off so that I can get a second job to save up some money. When I register for school again, I will be able to register as myself and claim only myself so that I will be able to get financial aid. I feel really bad for wasting my parents' money, but I will pay them back once I am able. I have people who believe that I can make it, so I know it is going to happen. Working two jobs will give me a chance to save up money and have more of a chance to get involved with a casting agency because I will have money to get headshots made.
We've thought about all of our expenses and have found that we will easily be able to pay for rent and utilities divided by the three of us. I'm paying off my jeep with this check, so I'll be able to use the money that I was once using on the jeep towards rent. Having two jobs will help me also take on any new expenses that may rise, such as a higher insurance premium if you take me off of yours.
I'm also going to be saving money on gas because I won't have to drive down south to see Erin anymore, and I won't have to drive so far east to hang out with Gerk. You asked me if I saved anything, and I haven't. I started thinking about why not, and I realized that a lot of it is due to getting ready to go up to South Fork (jeep tune up, oil change), and then gas getting up there, and buying stupid little things. If I'm on my own, I'll definitely be saving my money and not making frivolous purchases. I need to get out on my own and live my life for me. I'm not going to learn anything if I just keep on listening to my parents about what I should do and never make any decisions for myself. If I fail... I fail, and I just hope that my parents will be there to help me back up. Isn't that what parents are supposed to be for? To support their children in their endeavors? So I hope that you will understand why I've got to do what I've got to do.
In closing, I want to touch on a subject that I've never got to really talk to you about. You said that another reason you didn't really like Gerk is because I change when I'm around him, that I do things that I don't normally do and that Mom didn't even like him. You were disappointed with me when Gerk and I would go out to the bar because I didn't do anything like that until he got here. Well, I'm not a person who drinks by himself. I am a social drinker, so I only drink when there are other people around. I don't think that makes me a bad person. I think that you should worry if I were to ever sit alone at the house and drink by myself every night, but I never have. Mom's problem with Gerk was that I would always want to go out and do things with him. Back in Hawaii, there were always parties going on, or a bunch of Gerk's friends would be hanging out. Most times I would just be sitting at home by myself until Gerk called me to hang out. I don't understand how taking me out of the house and saving me from my loneliness is such a bad thing. It's not like we were out causing trouble. We were just socializing and having a good time. How I am around Gerk is just how I am. Gerk hasn't changed anything about me, he just brings it to the surface.
I am moving in with Gerk and Erin so that I can develop as a person and come into my own. I hope that you will realize that I had an excellent upbringing and that I will know to make the right decisions at the right time, even if you disagree that I'm making the right decision at this time. Thank you again for everything. I hope that I can one day repay you so that we are square in your eyes.
Love,
Casper