Why? (a repost from myspace)
from now on i'm not going to look out for anyone else but #1, myself. why should i care about others, why should i try to do things w/ other people if they are just going to cancel on me and not even think anything of it. why are people always looking out for #1 instead of thinking how something will effect others around them? i guess i just don't understand anything b/c i do think of others and i put others wants and needs before mine. i can't wait to get away from here, away from everything i know, away from everyone that i can't depend on. i know i can depend on myself but thats it. maybe i should become not dependable so people will quit taking advantage of me. maybe if i let a few people down, if i put my needs and wants infront of other sometimes maybe people will realize how it feels to be let down. i have been let down by so many people who i have planned things w/ then they cancel or let down b/c people don't live up to what they say they are going to do. maybe i shouldn't hold everyone at the standard i hold myself at. is it too much to ask to just think of someone else before you think of yourself for once? i guess this is the end of the nice erin who is dependable. i have been walked on for the last time. screw all you bitches who think you can take advantage of me and you people who like to always cancel plans on me. thank you for turning me into a bitter person who doesn't think they can rely on anyone.