Mental Lapse
Mmm so here I am in cubical land eating my lunch and reading current events on MSNBC.com when suddenly I am plagued by the overwhelming sensation that I have forgotten something. Me, how…how could I forget anything. I am so good at keeping a schedule and being organized.
I realize I have no idea if I have paid this months car payment and that I opened my Visa bill, but I have no recollection of paying it. What is happening to me…work. That’s what’s happening to me. I am expending so much energy at work that I come home and I go right to bed. I get up, eat dinner and then end up right back in bed again. I’m just wondering is this even normal? Do all recent grads experience this when they finally start working?
Now when I get home I need to make sure that I did actually make my car payment and see if I even came close to paying my Visa bill….and if I didn’t I better sure as hell get on it.
Aside from the sudden terror of being late with every payment I have I think I am doing well. Things with my parents are getting progressively better and my relationship with Peter is fantastic. Although work is consuming a lot of my energy I am not stressed out about it. I really like the people I work with and the work I am doing. My biggest fear is that I wont be able to stay once my contract is up.
I can’t believe its getting close to Thanksgiving. I was invited over to the Greenwood’s but I think I am going to go to DC to see my family. What does everyone have planned this year?
I realize I have no idea if I have paid this months car payment and that I opened my Visa bill, but I have no recollection of paying it. What is happening to me…work. That’s what’s happening to me. I am expending so much energy at work that I come home and I go right to bed. I get up, eat dinner and then end up right back in bed again. I’m just wondering is this even normal? Do all recent grads experience this when they finally start working?
Now when I get home I need to make sure that I did actually make my car payment and see if I even came close to paying my Visa bill….and if I didn’t I better sure as hell get on it.
Aside from the sudden terror of being late with every payment I have I think I am doing well. Things with my parents are getting progressively better and my relationship with Peter is fantastic. Although work is consuming a lot of my energy I am not stressed out about it. I really like the people I work with and the work I am doing. My biggest fear is that I wont be able to stay once my contract is up.
I can’t believe its getting close to Thanksgiving. I was invited over to the Greenwood’s but I think I am going to go to DC to see my family. What does everyone have planned this year?