not too sure what to call this one
Here I am posting again...I almost forgot about Livejournal. I have been hella busy latley, but that's okay, it keeps me sane in a weird way. Anyways, things have been going well. I am just getting established and begining to look at things differently i guess you could say. This is a good thing because for too long, I had my mind set in one mode and that was negativity mostly. I am understanding that now is the time to start life and to just see where it takes me. I have always known that life is here and now, but I guess some recent things, events and experiences have opened my eyes just a bit more...there is a big world out there and I just want to know what it is about.
I have just been feeling so much more independent more so than before and it is really nice. I have been trying to not sweat the small stuff, and i must say I have been doing a pretty good job at it so far. There are times when i get in a rut and think of the things I don't have...this mostly has something to do with a boyfriend/relationship, but i just try not to let it get me down and i just try and tell myself that it will happen when it is suppose to and I try not to try and wish for it so hard.
This leads me to the next thing. The guy at work (of course)Anthony...man! Who knows what the deal is and I just want to talk to him more. But I will tell you this, some werid force took over me and I just went up to him and asked if he would want to go out for a drink. I think I caught him way off guard because he really didn't know what to say and he just jumbeled his words. In all honisty, I don't know what came over me, because I would have never done that...so I thought. He gave me his number, I called a couple times but he doesn't seem to ever want to go out....do I ALWAYS catch him at a bad time, or is that just his way of saying "keep away you nut" who knows. It is hard to talk at work because we are both always working/busy and that is the truth I am not trying to make up an excuse. We will say hi every once and a while but that is about it...I don't know why I trip about it, but I just try and act like "I don't care" when i see him...he dose the same thing, but the sad thing is, he may really not care. Who is to say, i guess time will tell...TIME what a heavy thing.
So, My dad is engaged to his girlfriend...he told me this yesterday. I am happy for him...i just don't know what to say. i guess my opinion doesn't count in this one which is cool...as long as he is happy that is all that matters. He just kinda came out and said it when i got to work. I knew it was coming because my brother told me that he saw the ring and all of that, it was just a matter of my dad telling me. There is no date set so who knows when all of this is gonna go down. Him and his girlfriend are looking for houses you know, the whole 9 yards...it should be interesting.
My cousin just got back from a huge road trip all over the U.S. he is lucky as hell! He said that he had a real good time and got to see so many things. I got to hang out with the whole fam (mom's side) on sunday. it was so nice to see everyone!!! Cousin's aunts uncles family friends...always the best medicine... I would love to do something like that, I want to see more of the U.S. Cole and i are going to plan a trip to New Jersey to see our guys Sam. he is gonna fly out here form L.A. and then we will drive our asses to the east coast and CHILL! I can't wait it will be so cool.
At this point, I just want to start saving some money so that i can build up the bank account again and put some extra aside to move out in to a place with Amber. Her and I both really want to just get a place together. We both are just gonna start saving and do the damn thing, that's the only thing to do.
I guess i can say that things are changing and I can see it right in front of my eyes...this is a good thing. I am glad to say that I am realizing it, it is a nice feeling to be "in tune" with what is happening around me. I don't know if it was the whole Aussie thing that has helped me out, but i have just been looking at things differently and it is real nice.
I feel like I have so much more that I could "update" with at this point, but i am not sure that I feel like typing all of it or boaring everyone with it. I talked to Cole last night and that went well. he is doing good and he is happy out in Cali. Being able to be out there was so cool and nice to see what he has been up to for so long. I miss him so much and I want to go back. I wish it was just a bit closer so I could drive there you know in less that a day or two. His girlfriend and all of hi other friends are good people and they made me feel so "at home" I really had a great time out there and it was so nice to be with cole again!! God Damn!!!
Well, it is getting to be about that time...to sleep. I work at the cafe tomorrow from noon-5. it has been nice latley because i have just been working one job a day. Although the extra money is nice when i work them both in the same day. That will be next week, this I will call my "Slow" week. Next week will be real recktic!
Until next time,
~Michelle
P.S. the new 311 CD 'Don't Tread On Me" comes out the 16th!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to get to the show in Chicago, but i have to work!!! :(
I have just been feeling so much more independent more so than before and it is really nice. I have been trying to not sweat the small stuff, and i must say I have been doing a pretty good job at it so far. There are times when i get in a rut and think of the things I don't have...this mostly has something to do with a boyfriend/relationship, but i just try not to let it get me down and i just try and tell myself that it will happen when it is suppose to and I try not to try and wish for it so hard.
This leads me to the next thing. The guy at work (of course)Anthony...man! Who knows what the deal is and I just want to talk to him more. But I will tell you this, some werid force took over me and I just went up to him and asked if he would want to go out for a drink. I think I caught him way off guard because he really didn't know what to say and he just jumbeled his words. In all honisty, I don't know what came over me, because I would have never done that...so I thought. He gave me his number, I called a couple times but he doesn't seem to ever want to go out....do I ALWAYS catch him at a bad time, or is that just his way of saying "keep away you nut" who knows. It is hard to talk at work because we are both always working/busy and that is the truth I am not trying to make up an excuse. We will say hi every once and a while but that is about it...I don't know why I trip about it, but I just try and act like "I don't care" when i see him...he dose the same thing, but the sad thing is, he may really not care. Who is to say, i guess time will tell...TIME what a heavy thing.
So, My dad is engaged to his girlfriend...he told me this yesterday. I am happy for him...i just don't know what to say. i guess my opinion doesn't count in this one which is cool...as long as he is happy that is all that matters. He just kinda came out and said it when i got to work. I knew it was coming because my brother told me that he saw the ring and all of that, it was just a matter of my dad telling me. There is no date set so who knows when all of this is gonna go down. Him and his girlfriend are looking for houses you know, the whole 9 yards...it should be interesting.
My cousin just got back from a huge road trip all over the U.S. he is lucky as hell! He said that he had a real good time and got to see so many things. I got to hang out with the whole fam (mom's side) on sunday. it was so nice to see everyone!!! Cousin's aunts uncles family friends...always the best medicine... I would love to do something like that, I want to see more of the U.S. Cole and i are going to plan a trip to New Jersey to see our guys Sam. he is gonna fly out here form L.A. and then we will drive our asses to the east coast and CHILL! I can't wait it will be so cool.
At this point, I just want to start saving some money so that i can build up the bank account again and put some extra aside to move out in to a place with Amber. Her and I both really want to just get a place together. We both are just gonna start saving and do the damn thing, that's the only thing to do.
I guess i can say that things are changing and I can see it right in front of my eyes...this is a good thing. I am glad to say that I am realizing it, it is a nice feeling to be "in tune" with what is happening around me. I don't know if it was the whole Aussie thing that has helped me out, but i have just been looking at things differently and it is real nice.
I feel like I have so much more that I could "update" with at this point, but i am not sure that I feel like typing all of it or boaring everyone with it. I talked to Cole last night and that went well. he is doing good and he is happy out in Cali. Being able to be out there was so cool and nice to see what he has been up to for so long. I miss him so much and I want to go back. I wish it was just a bit closer so I could drive there you know in less that a day or two. His girlfriend and all of hi other friends are good people and they made me feel so "at home" I really had a great time out there and it was so nice to be with cole again!! God Damn!!!
Well, it is getting to be about that time...to sleep. I work at the cafe tomorrow from noon-5. it has been nice latley because i have just been working one job a day. Although the extra money is nice when i work them both in the same day. That will be next week, this I will call my "Slow" week. Next week will be real recktic!
Until next time,
~Michelle
P.S. the new 311 CD 'Don't Tread On Me" comes out the 16th!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to get to the show in Chicago, but i have to work!!! :(