Starbucks Coffee is starting to grow on me...it's time to go home.
It has been a little bit...Anyways, it is Monday eve and I have decided to post. So today, I worked out and cleaned the apartment for most of the day. I hit up the bathrooms, mopped all the floors and the balcony. I cleaned the kitchen Sunday, along with vaccuming and packing a bunch of my stuff. I know that we have a week left to be here, but I figured I would get most of the cleaning out of the way so that on Thursday, it will just take a little bit of touching up before check out...I just hope that it stays clean.
It was Father's Day yesterday...I wish I could have been at home for it, but I did get to talk to Pop's on the phone and that was great as always. I miss him and everyone like crazy and I am looking forward to my return. I am feeling relaxed for the first time in a while since I have been here, I have got to say that it is nice. I went out on Saturday night with the Golden Gate crew and it was a good time. Their friend Jamie is here to visit and she is a real cool girl. We ended up going to the Party, Shooters, Beer Garden and O'Mallies. I learn more and more about them each time we hang out. It is always akward to me in the beginning of the night. As it goes on, and we get a few beers in, it seems to get better. I never know what to think of them. I guess Jessica is the one that really gets me, I’m not too sure, I guess I still get paranoid when I think about wheather they like me or not, but really I don’t know what the fuck I am worried about with that. They call me to hang out and ask me to come around, it’s not like I show up and they are like….hey…. So I just need to get over my paranoia and live. It is a whole nother battle, I like to tell myself that I have gotten better since coming here, but I don’t know yet. I mean, I have gotten better with it with many things, but it still lurks around in my brain like smoke, it is crazy. Who knows, I just think that it will be one of those things that I will just have to live with.
Last night, I was realizing that we have a hot tub here and I have never been in it...that is odd, so I decided to give it a shot and it was nice. Then I went to get coffee at Starbuck's which is odd,but they were playing good jazz and it was kinda nice. I was just writting and think about this whole freaking thing, that is coming to a close and all I can say is that it is crazy. 5 months...man. I need this time to reflect. Reflect on this whole thing and try to figure out how to take it all in and then relay it to all the loved ones at home….it will be good and interesting at the same time. I am thinking of going to Brisbane tomorrow, I will see how it is when I wake up and stuff. I really liked the city when Eric and I went. And yes, having Eric here was one of the best things. We had a good time and seeing him was really nice. At first, he was kind of dissapointed with Surfers Paradise....I took him to the beach and at that moment, I think he realized how cool it all is and that he was in AUSTRALIA! It was fun. We got to see Springbrook, the Rainforst, and catch a buzz form the wine tasting that we got to do. Eric got but his first legal drink here and his first legal purchase in a liqour store...he was excited to say the least. We just hungout a lot, went to the beach and caught up, it was good and I miss him, again!!!!
Latley there has really been some things on my mind and on my chest that have been bothering me and I am not too sure why. I think that I just need to talk about it, they say it is the best way to deal with the stuff....my problem is when to do it. There reallly isn't the time and I feel like I will be "cutting in", I have to though and I just need to make the time and the effort. I will feel a lot better when I do it, well I am hoping that I will anyways.
So anyways, there is one week until I get home. At this point I am chillin and trying not to worry about so many things, we will see how that goes. I am going to hit the sack so I can wake up early and hopefully get out to Brisbane. Until next time, I love you all.
Love,
~Michelle
It was Father's Day yesterday...I wish I could have been at home for it, but I did get to talk to Pop's on the phone and that was great as always. I miss him and everyone like crazy and I am looking forward to my return. I am feeling relaxed for the first time in a while since I have been here, I have got to say that it is nice. I went out on Saturday night with the Golden Gate crew and it was a good time. Their friend Jamie is here to visit and she is a real cool girl. We ended up going to the Party, Shooters, Beer Garden and O'Mallies. I learn more and more about them each time we hang out. It is always akward to me in the beginning of the night. As it goes on, and we get a few beers in, it seems to get better. I never know what to think of them. I guess Jessica is the one that really gets me, I’m not too sure, I guess I still get paranoid when I think about wheather they like me or not, but really I don’t know what the fuck I am worried about with that. They call me to hang out and ask me to come around, it’s not like I show up and they are like….hey…. So I just need to get over my paranoia and live. It is a whole nother battle, I like to tell myself that I have gotten better since coming here, but I don’t know yet. I mean, I have gotten better with it with many things, but it still lurks around in my brain like smoke, it is crazy. Who knows, I just think that it will be one of those things that I will just have to live with.
Last night, I was realizing that we have a hot tub here and I have never been in it...that is odd, so I decided to give it a shot and it was nice. Then I went to get coffee at Starbuck's which is odd,but they were playing good jazz and it was kinda nice. I was just writting and think about this whole freaking thing, that is coming to a close and all I can say is that it is crazy. 5 months...man. I need this time to reflect. Reflect on this whole thing and try to figure out how to take it all in and then relay it to all the loved ones at home….it will be good and interesting at the same time. I am thinking of going to Brisbane tomorrow, I will see how it is when I wake up and stuff. I really liked the city when Eric and I went. And yes, having Eric here was one of the best things. We had a good time and seeing him was really nice. At first, he was kind of dissapointed with Surfers Paradise....I took him to the beach and at that moment, I think he realized how cool it all is and that he was in AUSTRALIA! It was fun. We got to see Springbrook, the Rainforst, and catch a buzz form the wine tasting that we got to do. Eric got but his first legal drink here and his first legal purchase in a liqour store...he was excited to say the least. We just hungout a lot, went to the beach and caught up, it was good and I miss him, again!!!!
Latley there has really been some things on my mind and on my chest that have been bothering me and I am not too sure why. I think that I just need to talk about it, they say it is the best way to deal with the stuff....my problem is when to do it. There reallly isn't the time and I feel like I will be "cutting in", I have to though and I just need to make the time and the effort. I will feel a lot better when I do it, well I am hoping that I will anyways.
So anyways, there is one week until I get home. At this point I am chillin and trying not to worry about so many things, we will see how that goes. I am going to hit the sack so I can wake up early and hopefully get out to Brisbane. Until next time, I love you all.
Love,
~Michelle