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so once again, i have issues with a girl...this time its something relatively new for me. my best friend is kind of seeing this girl. He kinda likes her, but he is not THAT into her. he really wants to be with another girl. I, on the other hand, am insanely into her. More than I have been into anyone in a very long time. And i think she is interested in me too. She is beautiful, and smart, and everything i would ever want in a girl and then some. she is fucking amazing. we kissed last week, and it was one of those awkward half kisses, but i think only because i turned at that last second, because i love my best friend and would never intentionally hurt him. anyways... i really like her. she is amazing. and i want her to be my girlfriend. hell, right now, while i am DRUNK, i want to marry her and spend the rest of my life with her making babies. not even the having sex. but just having kids. kids who are really REALLY politically confused, because daddy believes whole heartedly in the Democratic Party, and makes donations, and Mommy believes whole heartedly in the Republican Party and makes donations. but i think i could even overcome something that serious (i know it sounds ridiculous, but i almost broke up with a girl one time because she didn't believe in the constitution as a governing document. so politics are kind of a big deal to me.) anyways, i really like her, and i don't know what i can do about it. cuz she and i are totally compatible in every way (except politics, but even that we agree on in many ways.) and we are very atracted to each other, and i really want to just cuddle with her. anyways...this was a long drunken rant. but i really like her. i might be approaching love. goodnight.