it's freezing
My life is boring. Also filled with stupid bullshit drama. Drama that i have created of course. People can only treat you the way you let them. Needless to say people treat me like shit, and i let them. I have gotten to the point with whats his dick that i don't care. Which has made me a happy person, but now we are hanging out again. Temptation is that evil monkey on my back that just won't leave me alone. I told him to move on and he packed all of his stuff and started to leave but then decided that it was far to easy to stick around. Far too easy for me to give in and make my life hell. I have the upper hand though, or so i thought. Screw that, i am the one in control of this. I'm not going to stick around to be made a fool of again. I'm done playing the role of the sucker. I am nobodys bitch. I'm just tired of the same old run around.
I'm tired of shitty friends who at the drop of a hat will blow me off because their boyfriend says that im a bad influence. When in reality she has been a bad influence on me. I have been nothing but a good friend, but because i called her boyfriend an asshole who needs to grow up and act like a man infront of him, im the bad person. The truth hurts. He is a piece of shit who says nothing but mean things to her. If thats what she wants then by all means go for it. Stop being a dick and maybe people will like you.
All i want is to have some good friends who are fun to hang out with, nothing fancy. People that im not worried are going to ditch me for the lame boyfriend/girlfriend. People who are not going to use me to pay for stuff and think that spending time with them is payback for it. And most of all someone who is not fucking wishy washy with their feelings, when they are not trying to pursue some other person who finally blows them off, settle for me.