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ouch.
And thus, I felt anger.
[edit: 10:25]
So I was thinking. I'm so terrible at explaining my feelings. so I tried belting out whatever comes to mind. :D
pain
suffering
I feel like I'm being fucked with
repetition from the night before
fucked with
fatigue
pain
hurt
anger
hate
annoyance
defiance
chest pains
anger
hatred
sticky eyelids
confused
grinded jaw
anger
don't fucking pity me
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
it hurts
cold
knotted stomach
shaking, can't type
embarrassment
anger
hate
anger
hate
anger
don't talk down to me
don't act like you're doing me favors
don't act like you're "sugar coating" it
And now for actual sentences.
I knew we were done, why are you putting it this way? it's cruel. If we were in person, I'd have to say I would have slapped you. Maybe I misunderstood this morning or something? you already ended it. Why are you acting like it's news?
Go date whoever, I don't care. I was fine and now I'm just in pain again. I know you don't mean to be cruel, you're just doing the best you can. we were fine just being friends today, so why'd you have to reitterate it? I don't see the point.
it hurts so fucking much, especially the fact that I can't say this to your face. Have to communicate through a fucking journal.
I'll probably regret posting this in the morning, I'll hate that you read it, but I figured I need to get this out of my head. right now I'm infuriated.
Last night
this morning
15 minutes ago or something.
Do me a favor and make up your mind before you say anything else on the matter...thanks.
:D WELL I FEEL A BIT BETTER NOW. Lot of other shit I could rant about but I have too much pride to. :D
On another note..
my mom agreed we need a punching bag the other day. I'm excited.
Now to stop shaking and go to sleep.
And thus, I felt anger.
[edit: 10:25]
So I was thinking. I'm so terrible at explaining my feelings. so I tried belting out whatever comes to mind. :D
pain
suffering
I feel like I'm being fucked with
repetition from the night before
fucked with
fatigue
pain
hurt
anger
hate
annoyance
defiance
chest pains
anger
hatred
sticky eyelids
confused
grinded jaw
anger
don't fucking pity me
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
it hurts
cold
knotted stomach
shaking, can't type
embarrassment
anger
hate
anger
hate
anger
don't talk down to me
don't act like you're doing me favors
don't act like you're "sugar coating" it
And now for actual sentences.
I knew we were done, why are you putting it this way? it's cruel. If we were in person, I'd have to say I would have slapped you. Maybe I misunderstood this morning or something? you already ended it. Why are you acting like it's news?
Go date whoever, I don't care. I was fine and now I'm just in pain again. I know you don't mean to be cruel, you're just doing the best you can. we were fine just being friends today, so why'd you have to reitterate it? I don't see the point.
it hurts so fucking much, especially the fact that I can't say this to your face. Have to communicate through a fucking journal.
I'll probably regret posting this in the morning, I'll hate that you read it, but I figured I need to get this out of my head. right now I'm infuriated.
Last night
this morning
15 minutes ago or something.
Do me a favor and make up your mind before you say anything else on the matter...thanks.
:D WELL I FEEL A BIT BETTER NOW. Lot of other shit I could rant about but I have too much pride to. :D
On another note..
my mom agreed we need a punching bag the other day. I'm excited.
Now to stop shaking and go to sleep.