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sometimes i don't feel like anyone gives a damn
i try to be there for people but i'm just not there for myself..
I hate me, for many reaons that can't be explained..
I just wan't to be happy.. why can't I feel like that...? No ammount of pot or coke can make me the way I want to feel.. I just want to fix myself but I don't know how..
I don'texrpress this when i'm sober, but i'm quite the unhappy person. I have some idea why but.. why? why am I not good enough? WHY AM I STILL HERE? what makes it all worth-while? I.. fuck it. argh. fuck it. yeah... poeple are nly there for themselves, including mysef.. why bother for help> I'll just have to live w/ it i suppose.. i'll be hungover while babysitting, andfor anrrons surprise bday party but whocares? nobody.. so why bother..?
i try to be there for people but i'm just not there for myself..
I hate me, for many reaons that can't be explained..
I just wan't to be happy.. why can't I feel like that...? No ammount of pot or coke can make me the way I want to feel.. I just want to fix myself but I don't know how..
I don'texrpress this when i'm sober, but i'm quite the unhappy person. I have some idea why but.. why? why am I not good enough? WHY AM I STILL HERE? what makes it all worth-while? I.. fuck it. argh. fuck it. yeah... poeple are nly there for themselves, including mysef.. why bother for help> I'll just have to live w/ it i suppose.. i'll be hungover while babysitting, andfor anrrons surprise bday party but whocares? nobody.. so why bother..?