(no subject)
Sometimes all I really want to feel is love
Sometimes I’m angry that I feel so angry
Sometimes my feelings get in the way
Of what I really feel I needed to say
If you stand in a circle
Then you’ll all have a back to bite
Back logged voices on the 7 wonders
We’re all so funny but he’s lost his joke now
A communication from the one lined joke
A stand up comic and a rock musician
Making so much noise you don’t know when to listen
Why are you judging people so damn hard
You’re taking your point of views a bit too far
I made my shoes shine with my coal
But my polish didn’t shine the hole
If you stand in a circle
Then you’ll all have a back to bite
(back? ) long books on the 7 wonders
We’re all so funny but he’s lost his joke now
Our communications come from one lined joke
From stand up comics and a rock musicians
Making so much noise you don’t know when to listen
Think it over
There’s the air of the height of the highrollers
Think it over
You ain’t got nothing till ya know her
I know nothing about anything and this is it. So many have come before me and said it more beautifully than I ever could. I admire them, someday I may be closer to that but never equal. I should consider my options before becoming a starving artist. I am not good at too much else, though. Weird, nothing is the same, I know a growing has been happening for awhile now almost 21 years have crept from nowhere and it is a shroud that startles everything, like a veil of tragic endings it doesn't blind but visually things are altered because when you change everything has to change in you, but that's bullshit and I know it. I feel like I am grieving so many losses, nursing so many wounds that adulthood should wait for me, but it won't so I have to be done with what was and ready for what is, gotta be a big girl now, sorry I've held on so long I see now how it was hurting all of us. I am so greatful to you for you have helped me find me. instead of holding my hand like I've asked of all too many times, stand with me, independent of me but with me if you can. some company without the grief I've held, lets just talk, but as humans who see it really isn't so bad, because nothing has been more true to me lately, and I think you know it too.
Sara