no hope left.

[chubbydonut]

i give up. whatever i try to do and feel, it wont matter to him. it's back to months of torture for me again. i got my heart broken again. my idea of neverland will never come back. it's destroyed. my idea of pure love is slowly fading away. i thought if i hoped hard enough something nice will happen. i thought if i prayed so much God would hear me. i thought if i still loved him he might too. everything i did was useless.

if you're reading this. i hope you're happy.

-e