Just to Dense Ch.1
Title: Just to dense
Author: chubbycheeks215
Rating: T
Pairing: Yamashi, Umichi
Summary: After being together for 3 years Mirai finally says she knows how he still loves his ex-gf and tells him to go to her. But even after Ryosuke leaves all he can seem to be thinking of is Mirai, could he really NOT be over his ex girlfriend? Or is it just friendship?
As Mirai laid in bed just covered in her bed sheets looking up at the ceiling, many things went through her mind.
I don’t want to but I should.
Even if it’s hard I have to.
Because that’s what would make it better for him.
Silently she turned her head and faced the back of her partner.
“Ryosuke, let’s get a divorce.” It was a mere whisper, if even, but he had heard.
“What are you talking about? Don’t joke around Mirai, go to sleep” The man spoke with cold words.
Slowly she brought her self to sit up on their bed. The only thing that was heard was the breathing of the two. Staring straight ahead at the wall, where a picture of them at their wedding was hung by a nail, she spoke softly, carefully as though to not anger her husband.
“We can’t go on like this, I can’t go on like this.....This is the only thing we do, don’t you find it horrible? Every time this happens I wake up to find myself covered in bed sheets and an empty spot beside me. I know you tried, I know you had to get away from those feelings for her so you started going out with me, then married me. But I know you love her, even now, and I know she regrets what happened between the two of you. So I’m telling you, go to her. Go to the one you actually love.”
Her head hung low, trying to hide the fact that she was on the verge of tears, it worked. The man sitting beside her didn’t notice. He was stuck in his own little world as his brain tried to process what just had been said by his wife. When he finally caught on, he decided he should say something, anything, to break this silence.
“How long have you known?” He questioned her, curious as to why she never spoke about it before.
“Forever I guess you could say. From the very beginning. I always knew”
“Why did you never bother to say anything then? Even when you knew I was using you?” Confused, that’s exactly how he is feeling.
“Because I’m human Ryosuke, because I loved you from the beginning. The first time we met as kids at the park. You were so short back then, but I realized after time, this short guy who acts like a baby was actually much more mature than anyone else. Before I knew it I fell in love with you.”
She fiddled with her thumbs waiting for him to say something. As odd as it may sound, considering that they are married, she never actually told him she loved him. Knowing he could never love her back, she never said it, not wanting to push him in that kind of situation where he wouldn’t be able to answer.
“You held it in this whole time? Even when I was hurting you for my own sake?” He was touched but felt extremely guilty as he looked at his wife.
“It’s hurting you too isn’t it? Not being able to be with the one you truly love. I know you Ryo, you care for others a lot, so doing this, using someone, I’m sure you feel pained as well.”
Brown met with brown, and for the first time in his life he decided to do something for himself, to not care what others thought and do what he wanted most. He got up, grabbed the clothe that was tossed on the floor earlier and put them back on and faced the women he married.
“I would have never though of marrying someone aside from you if it weren’t her.” He smiled at Mirai, the first smile she saw from him in a long time.
“Thank you, but really you never thought of marrying someone aside from her didn’t you?”
He felt sorry, he felt guilty for doing this to a friend. As he stared at her smile he couldn’t help but think it would have been nice if he actually loved her instead.
“Bye bye, Ryo chan.”
And with that said, he ran off through the door of their room, down their stairs and out their door, ending everything between them, unknown to him the second he stepped out of their house he left a crying mirai behind bawling her eyes out.
Each step he took as he ran made it harder for him to breathe. And his mind clouded with thoughts of his loved one.
Will she take me back?
Can we start over?
Does she still love me?
His running slowed down as he reached a fairly large house. He took each step carefully, slowly, nervous to ring the bell and let her know he was there. But then he started to think.
‘What are you doing Ryosuke?! Mirai let you free she gave you your wings to come here and she supports you, so what are you waiting for.’ How noisy his conscience could be....
Biting on his lower lip he brought his hand up and rung the gold colored bell. He stood waiting there, slowly he decided himself she wouldn't come out, that she was asleep, but he heard foot steps. Every step he heard his heart beat rose and he clenched his fists, cursing at his conscience at the same time.
The large door creaked open and there she stood, the women he loved so dearly standing there wide eyed at him.
“Ryosuke what are you doing here? It’s 3am, Mirai must be so worried about you!” She spoke with concern.
But he didn't pay attention to a thing she said, just hearing her voice had his mind go crazy. Before she could say anything else he bent down and kissed her, but she pushed away saying he was married to mirai. Knowing what she was thinking he still continued to kiss her and say words inbetween saying he still loved her and how he and mirai broke up.
xX[Next Morning]Xx
Warmth that was what Ryosuke woke up to. Slowly he opened his eyes and looked down to the girl that was snuggling in his arms. Content with how this moment was, wishing time could stop, he stroked her hair. Staring down at how they were only covered in bed sheets, the events of last night flashed through his mind. The smiling face of Mirai as she said bye was stuck in his mind.
“What’s wrong Ryo-chan?” He heard a soft voice ask.
He stared down to see large eyes looking up at him in curiosity.
“Nothing Suzu, it’s nothing. Shall we cook some breakfast?”
Thats right he thought, I’m with the person I love, I can be happy with her, with Suzuka. Smiling brightly the girl sat up and grabbed his hangs in hers and brought him downstairs.
xX[Dance Practice]Xx
Wide eyes, gaping mouths, confused looks and angered faces. All members of Hey Say JUMP were in front of him, each with a different reaction than the other shown on their face. He had told them what happened last night, well he would call it a success telling them on how it went, but 5 of the guys seemed like they were ready to rip his head off.
Yuto just stormed out of the room, to angered to look at Ryosuke’s face. Before Ryosuke could even sit back down on the couch Chinen grabbed his collar and threw him to the ground.
“Did you stop to think, even for a second, that Mirai was hurt more than you ever could be? DID YOU EVEN HUG HER BEFORE YOU LEFT?! DID YOU EVEN CARE FOR HER THESE PAST 3 YEARS?! HAVE YOU?! She isn’t as strong as you think.”
For someone as small as he is, he was pretty strong.
Ryosuke was on the ground staring up at Chinen who was radiating an aura that was murderous.
“Umika called Mirai this morning 5 times, she left her jacket at our house. You know Umika, she gets worried quickly. So I was worried something might have happened and I was going to ask you about it, but it turns out this was the reason. You went back to Suzuka, THE Ohgo Suzuka who cheated on you and you walked in on. I hope your happy with your decision.”
Saying Chinen was angry would be an understatement, he was furious. Disappointed that his best friend would do that to Mirai. But even so he held his hand out and helped Ryosuke back up.
“What am I suppose to say Ryo? Your my best friend, and I want to support you and cheer you on, but how? I don’t trust that girl your with, and you just left Mirai heart broken after her heart has been empty and in pain these past few years. Tell me, what am I suppose to say now?”
He was calm now, but he seemed so hurt as though he could feel the pain Mirai went through.
“I don’t know.” He looked up at Chinen, showing he did feel guilty.
“Go home for today........sorry forgot, go back to Suzuka’s. I’ll cover for you. So just go home.”
After Chinen had spoken he swiftly walked out the dance room. Leaving Ryosuke behind with 7 other members. Ryutaro, Kei, Daiki and Hikaru walked out while they pat his shoulder. Sighing Ryosuke slumped down into the coach burying his hands in his now disheveled hair.
“Go visit Mirai ok? Just to check on her.” Keito said before he left the room.
“What ever you choose I hope you choose the right thing to do I can’t tell you what to do.” Takaki said and left.
Ryosuke looked at the door where 8 of his friends left. Feeling weight beside him on the coach he turned to face Yabu sitting next to him.
“Ryo, I won't pressure you or lecture you considering I think Chinen did enough for everyones share of lecturing. Remember though, we will always have your back and everyone does things for whats best for you. Just do what you want.”
He could always leave it up to Yabu to be an older brother figure for him. Yabu slowly got up pat his back and left the room just like the rest, leaving Ryosuke there to sit and think.
Author: chubbycheeks215
Rating: T
Pairing: Yamashi, Umichi
Summary: After being together for 3 years Mirai finally says she knows how he still loves his ex-gf and tells him to go to her. But even after Ryosuke leaves all he can seem to be thinking of is Mirai, could he really NOT be over his ex girlfriend? Or is it just friendship?
As Mirai laid in bed just covered in her bed sheets looking up at the ceiling, many things went through her mind.
I don’t want to but I should.
Even if it’s hard I have to.
Because that’s what would make it better for him.
Silently she turned her head and faced the back of her partner.
“Ryosuke, let’s get a divorce.” It was a mere whisper, if even, but he had heard.
“What are you talking about? Don’t joke around Mirai, go to sleep” The man spoke with cold words.
Slowly she brought her self to sit up on their bed. The only thing that was heard was the breathing of the two. Staring straight ahead at the wall, where a picture of them at their wedding was hung by a nail, she spoke softly, carefully as though to not anger her husband.
“We can’t go on like this, I can’t go on like this.....This is the only thing we do, don’t you find it horrible? Every time this happens I wake up to find myself covered in bed sheets and an empty spot beside me. I know you tried, I know you had to get away from those feelings for her so you started going out with me, then married me. But I know you love her, even now, and I know she regrets what happened between the two of you. So I’m telling you, go to her. Go to the one you actually love.”
Her head hung low, trying to hide the fact that she was on the verge of tears, it worked. The man sitting beside her didn’t notice. He was stuck in his own little world as his brain tried to process what just had been said by his wife. When he finally caught on, he decided he should say something, anything, to break this silence.
“How long have you known?” He questioned her, curious as to why she never spoke about it before.
“Forever I guess you could say. From the very beginning. I always knew”
“Why did you never bother to say anything then? Even when you knew I was using you?” Confused, that’s exactly how he is feeling.
“Because I’m human Ryosuke, because I loved you from the beginning. The first time we met as kids at the park. You were so short back then, but I realized after time, this short guy who acts like a baby was actually much more mature than anyone else. Before I knew it I fell in love with you.”
She fiddled with her thumbs waiting for him to say something. As odd as it may sound, considering that they are married, she never actually told him she loved him. Knowing he could never love her back, she never said it, not wanting to push him in that kind of situation where he wouldn’t be able to answer.
“You held it in this whole time? Even when I was hurting you for my own sake?” He was touched but felt extremely guilty as he looked at his wife.
“It’s hurting you too isn’t it? Not being able to be with the one you truly love. I know you Ryo, you care for others a lot, so doing this, using someone, I’m sure you feel pained as well.”
Brown met with brown, and for the first time in his life he decided to do something for himself, to not care what others thought and do what he wanted most. He got up, grabbed the clothe that was tossed on the floor earlier and put them back on and faced the women he married.
“I would have never though of marrying someone aside from you if it weren’t her.” He smiled at Mirai, the first smile she saw from him in a long time.
“Thank you, but really you never thought of marrying someone aside from her didn’t you?”
He felt sorry, he felt guilty for doing this to a friend. As he stared at her smile he couldn’t help but think it would have been nice if he actually loved her instead.
“Bye bye, Ryo chan.”
And with that said, he ran off through the door of their room, down their stairs and out their door, ending everything between them, unknown to him the second he stepped out of their house he left a crying mirai behind bawling her eyes out.
Each step he took as he ran made it harder for him to breathe. And his mind clouded with thoughts of his loved one.
Will she take me back?
Can we start over?
Does she still love me?
His running slowed down as he reached a fairly large house. He took each step carefully, slowly, nervous to ring the bell and let her know he was there. But then he started to think.
‘What are you doing Ryosuke?! Mirai let you free she gave you your wings to come here and she supports you, so what are you waiting for.’ How noisy his conscience could be....
Biting on his lower lip he brought his hand up and rung the gold colored bell. He stood waiting there, slowly he decided himself she wouldn't come out, that she was asleep, but he heard foot steps. Every step he heard his heart beat rose and he clenched his fists, cursing at his conscience at the same time.
The large door creaked open and there she stood, the women he loved so dearly standing there wide eyed at him.
“Ryosuke what are you doing here? It’s 3am, Mirai must be so worried about you!” She spoke with concern.
But he didn't pay attention to a thing she said, just hearing her voice had his mind go crazy. Before she could say anything else he bent down and kissed her, but she pushed away saying he was married to mirai. Knowing what she was thinking he still continued to kiss her and say words inbetween saying he still loved her and how he and mirai broke up.
xX[Next Morning]Xx
Warmth that was what Ryosuke woke up to. Slowly he opened his eyes and looked down to the girl that was snuggling in his arms. Content with how this moment was, wishing time could stop, he stroked her hair. Staring down at how they were only covered in bed sheets, the events of last night flashed through his mind. The smiling face of Mirai as she said bye was stuck in his mind.
“What’s wrong Ryo-chan?” He heard a soft voice ask.
He stared down to see large eyes looking up at him in curiosity.
“Nothing Suzu, it’s nothing. Shall we cook some breakfast?”
Thats right he thought, I’m with the person I love, I can be happy with her, with Suzuka. Smiling brightly the girl sat up and grabbed his hangs in hers and brought him downstairs.
xX[Dance Practice]Xx
Wide eyes, gaping mouths, confused looks and angered faces. All members of Hey Say JUMP were in front of him, each with a different reaction than the other shown on their face. He had told them what happened last night, well he would call it a success telling them on how it went, but 5 of the guys seemed like they were ready to rip his head off.
Yuto just stormed out of the room, to angered to look at Ryosuke’s face. Before Ryosuke could even sit back down on the couch Chinen grabbed his collar and threw him to the ground.
“Did you stop to think, even for a second, that Mirai was hurt more than you ever could be? DID YOU EVEN HUG HER BEFORE YOU LEFT?! DID YOU EVEN CARE FOR HER THESE PAST 3 YEARS?! HAVE YOU?! She isn’t as strong as you think.”
For someone as small as he is, he was pretty strong.
Ryosuke was on the ground staring up at Chinen who was radiating an aura that was murderous.
“Umika called Mirai this morning 5 times, she left her jacket at our house. You know Umika, she gets worried quickly. So I was worried something might have happened and I was going to ask you about it, but it turns out this was the reason. You went back to Suzuka, THE Ohgo Suzuka who cheated on you and you walked in on. I hope your happy with your decision.”
Saying Chinen was angry would be an understatement, he was furious. Disappointed that his best friend would do that to Mirai. But even so he held his hand out and helped Ryosuke back up.
“What am I suppose to say Ryo? Your my best friend, and I want to support you and cheer you on, but how? I don’t trust that girl your with, and you just left Mirai heart broken after her heart has been empty and in pain these past few years. Tell me, what am I suppose to say now?”
He was calm now, but he seemed so hurt as though he could feel the pain Mirai went through.
“I don’t know.” He looked up at Chinen, showing he did feel guilty.
“Go home for today........sorry forgot, go back to Suzuka’s. I’ll cover for you. So just go home.”
After Chinen had spoken he swiftly walked out the dance room. Leaving Ryosuke behind with 7 other members. Ryutaro, Kei, Daiki and Hikaru walked out while they pat his shoulder. Sighing Ryosuke slumped down into the coach burying his hands in his now disheveled hair.
“Go visit Mirai ok? Just to check on her.” Keito said before he left the room.
“What ever you choose I hope you choose the right thing to do I can’t tell you what to do.” Takaki said and left.
Ryosuke looked at the door where 8 of his friends left. Feeling weight beside him on the coach he turned to face Yabu sitting next to him.
“Ryo, I won't pressure you or lecture you considering I think Chinen did enough for everyones share of lecturing. Remember though, we will always have your back and everyone does things for whats best for you. Just do what you want.”
He could always leave it up to Yabu to be an older brother figure for him. Yabu slowly got up pat his back and left the room just like the rest, leaving Ryosuke there to sit and think.