I'm a web journal slacker!!!
Hello World,
I've been away for a long time and I've been through a lot since I last wrote in my journal. Well first things first, I have less than a week before I finish summer school. Thank the lord!!!! I was starting to get tired with all that. I dont even remember the last things i wrote in here but I'm going through a big emotional rollar coaster right now. I know I'm not the only one with problems but shit I feel like i'm really down there. You know as you get older and as days go by, you should grow stronger in everything you do or say and become wiser in the choices you make. Not I, it seems that I'm doing the same shit over and over again and not getting anything accomplish for myself and my life. You are probably going.... "She's nuts!" Yeah i know, I think about a lot of things alll the time. I been really anti-social which is NOT in my nature but when I'm by myself I can be in whatever mood I please. I guess a reason why I been thinking like this is that I'm second thinking my college career. I'm really scared of what is to come. There are so many What if's. From what it looks like, well from what it looks like in my GPA... I may have set my goals a little higher than I can achieve. I dont know. I wish I will get an answer soon. I'm not that kind of person to be rash with my decisions and just change my mind about my goals in a second. I figured in time, sooner than later I will make up my mind and decide on a concrete goal to focus on. Hm, you know I really want to walk away from my past, well not necessarily the past but my past mistakes if that makes any sense. I think some of the choices I made were absolutely crazy and it really put a damper to me and my relationship with a lot of people. I've hurt the people who cares about me so much... it sucks.
(taking some time away from writing to chat with a friend)
Anyway, it was just nice to vent out to someone. I'm not as emotional now. Oh yeah, I saw Edwin McCain in concert last week.... FINALLY!!! It was sooooo amazing! We were front row, almost touching Edwin. Damn, I was so happy that night. It couldnt have been any better. That was the most exciting news recently. Aiight well it's getting late and I NEED some sleep. I'll be in touch more... well no promises but I will really make an effort this time. It's easy to vent out in a journal.
peace out.