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[chthonic_miasma]

i'll never fit in where i want
i'll never have it all
i'll never realize what matters
problem is
i'll never stop trying

and that's what slowly steals my energy
i double edged sword
the hilt only fit to my hand
but the pain affects not only me

dammit, why is it when i try to write what i feel that it changes because i'm doing so.