What I'm Thankful For
I'm thankful for Jesus. I couldn't have asked for anyone better. He makes me so happy and he loves me. I don't always deserve it, but I know and I promise to never take him for granted like I have. He puts up with so much, and I never realized how much I make him deal with. I've never loved anyone like I love him, and I'm close to losing him. I took my anger out on him when it wasn't right, and wasn't fair. It wasn't his fault. I was angry at his father, yet I took it out on him instead and I shouldn't have. Looking back now, I see so many other options I could have chosen on how to behave, but I didn't. And this isn't the first time I've done this either. I never realize what I do until later when I feel so guilty and so bad and I always wish I could take back my behavior, but it's too late, and you can't turn back time. I'm so thankful and grateful for how long we've been together, and how when I first told him I loved him, he said it right back. I don't know if he understands how happy he makes me. How wonderful it is to just be in his arms and the feelings he evokes in me. He chose me, and that is the best feeling in the world. Knowing that he's mine, is the best thing in the world, to know someone wants me, loves me, more than others, so that they chose me to be theirs. How could I have taken for granted all that he's given me? All the feelings. I don't deserve him, but he still chose me. I need him, and I need to put him before I. I wish I could show him how much he means to me. How much I truly care for him. I'd follow him to the ends of the earth and do anything he ever asked of me. He gave me a puppy. A freakin' puppy! and was close to giving me a kitten too. Two stuffed animals and all his loving. He does so much he doesn't have to do for me, and I take it for granted. But I'm going to change. Because I promised him. I don't want to lose him at all. I love him with all my heart. Everything I am. I want him to know how much he means to me, and I want to do everything I can for him. Whenever I was said when I was younger, I would push everyone away, I would take my anger out on them. But I won't do that to him anymore. I'll let him in and show him every emotion I feel. I'll share with him everything that goes on here *points to head* and here *points to heart* I promise him, I'll be his best. I couldn't imagine being without him and I want him in my life forever, because I wouldn't have it any other way. I just hope he sees how thankful I am to have him in my life. How thankful I am for the love he gives to me. How thankful I am that he chose me. How thankful I am for the happiness he gives me. How thankful I am for everything he's done. How thankful I am for all the care he's given me. How thankful I am for staying with me, through everything that's happened. How thankful I am that he loves me. How thankful I am, that he wants me. How thankful I am for not giving up yet.
Jesus, I love you, with everything I am. With everything I was and everything I will be. There is no one else I would rather be with and I don't think I could ever imagine being without you, nor would I ever want to. I don't want to give up, I want to work through this, there is so much we have to offer to each other, and I can't let my mistakes let it go to waste. There is so much we have together, and I don't want it to be in vain. I love you all too much.
Jesus, I love you, with everything I am. With everything I was and everything I will be. There is no one else I would rather be with and I don't think I could ever imagine being without you, nor would I ever want to. I don't want to give up, I want to work through this, there is so much we have to offer to each other, and I can't let my mistakes let it go to waste. There is so much we have together, and I don't want it to be in vain. I love you all too much.