I slept a lot of my day away today....
Thus, now I'm up..... it's almost 1:30 in the morning. Blech, I hate when I do that but here I am.
Maybe I'm just super excited, I really don't know.
*I GOT THE JOB AT THE HUMANE SOCIETY!!!! I get to work with animals, which is what I've always wanted to do!
I had the interview on Thursday after work. Recieved the call for the job offer on Friday and well, have been wondering if I'm just dreaming ever since then!
I cannot believe how far I've come within these couple of months. It's a complete transformation from when I'd been "depressed" and in my slump. I'd been in this slump for a long time, TOO long and though I know what [and Who] is owed thanks, it was all up to me to finally go through with it.
Leaving Quizno's is going to be a breath of fresh air! I've been stuck there for so long, any job possible outside of it had become blurry. I don't know if it's because I got so comfortable being there, or what.
Anyway, I welcome this change along with all of the others:
*After a good month or so of a break, Matthew and I reunited, started talking again and hanging out. He finally met the folks but everything is and will continue to be different this time. I've lost that unhealthy habit of liking someone before I really [and I mean REALLY] get to know them. I've stopped dating and I'm proud of the choice I've made. I can't deny that the attraction is still there but it differs from before. I have attained the mental self-restraint that keeps me from getting carried away with my feelings for anyone. I am appreciative of the singleness God's given me right now and I will use that to take advantage of things I want [and need] to do that I wouldn't be able to if I was in a relationship. Even still, if a relationship is ever produced from all of this it will not be for a while. My decision of courtship requires pursuing then deepening a friendship before any romantic feelings are ever established. Granted, I like what I've found out about Matthew so far, there is still a lot more to find out about him [and for him to find out about me] and thinking and saying I'd want a relationship with him at this point in time would be a premature decision on my part. This new frame of mind has helped me indefinitely though. I'm not "uneasy" if I don't hear from him on an everyday basis the way I used to be whenever the constant contact had first stopped. It's just as important to me that he maintains his top priorities and keeps a level head as I do mine. I admit, it felt good hearing how excited he was for me that I got this job. He was the one who pushed me to apply in the first place.
We don't hang out too much right now and it will probably only be even harder with my new job and his new DVD-Rom where he's learning Arabic for his future profession. Ahhh well, I'm not worried because a]I'm more than confident our friendship is strong enough to handle this b] It'll work out only if God wills it and if He doesn't, then it should not matter anyway. Anyhow, this weekend is a show at the White Rabbit that we're going to. Greg might go; I'm hoping he does so they can finally meet.
*I run constantly and have so far lost about 6 lbs! I just need to make sure I keep this up!
* Every Monday, I go out with my dad, usually to dinner, so we can catch up. This has been happening for about a month now. I'm super happy about doing this because it's vastly improved our relationship.
*My sister comes home for a few days this week. Also to take Little [her boyfriend Adam's cat, whom we've been watching] back. I'm excited, I miss her a lot.
*Because of changing priorities and attitudes [all mine], the "best friend-ships" have sort of been altered. There are a lot of differences in weekly habits that I'm just not into anymore. I got the "partying/getting drunk" thing out of my system with a quickness and so I, sadly, don't get to see many of my friends anymore. I have no idea what this means and it worries me a little. Rox and I mended that fight we had a few weekends back but there's still hostility or something there. I can feel it. We no longer talk on a daily basis and it's not the same when we DO talk.
So that's where I am... and that's where I'll continue to be.