My first College 'Hook Up'?
It wasn't until 11am this morning that I realized what I did--
What had happened, what it meant.
it's very awkward for me to say hook up because never in my life did I think I would be affiliated with one.
I am not one who is comfortable when it comes to intimacy and even making out, yet I did this....
What SUCKS to know is that I wanted this.
I remember getting my first kiss from Jeffrey in the back seat of my car, a place that seems to be significant in my sex life.
thats where ~*thee magic happens*~ as people say.
anyways..
I remember losing my virginity that september.
And I remember Jeffrey and I would always have sex as much as possible and when ever we had the chance.
And that was okay to me because we were in a serious relationship...
Well at the concluding stages of our relationship Rene and I started talking (this is back in February)
and Rene would always bring up how he wanted me to blow him
well that day came, and it was yesterday (Mothers day)
I KNEW! something was gonna happen, which is why I chose to nair/shave.
i swear it took 1 hour or so to get dressed/get ready...
Jessica had gotten caught or watever so she didnt cancelled, and then I was left with "omg what am I gonna do with rene?!"
this was the first day we physically met....and i was soo nervous SO SO SO SO SO nervous! I had tried so hard to avoid "these people". People from my town that are so promiscuous and go around fucking anything with two legs and a pair of balls that show interest in men, hell or even men that dont show interest in other men.
So I go to pick him up and he walks out of his house, as he got closer i was like omg omg omg omg he's coming closer! !@#%!#*%@#$
So he gets in, and we dont make eye contact!! and it was like that the whooole night!
I had music going, and we just talked about some stuff...
I didnt know where I was going, first place that came to mind was the beach Jeffrey and I had our 2nd real moment of intimacy.
After getting lost, we find the beach and I gave him the blanket in my car...
we walked down the staircase and all I could think about was, omg we might do it on this here sand.
We found a bonfire that was fading away and used some debris to keep it going.
we sat on a log, he was wrapped in my blanket, and I was just sitting on the sand with my legs out.
we talked about the past, the present, the future.........
and then he asked if i was cold, and i said a little
I opened my legs apart and told him here, sit between my legs and i wrapped my arms around his tiny body...
i had my hands on his belly fat which was soo cute!
we talked about stuff i just forgot what.
Then he rested his head on my shoulder and then this big bright light lit up from the right of us
and we assumed it meant we had to leave, cause other ppl left too...
So i said, here we can go in the back seat of my car..
and we did.
he rested his head on my shoulder again..
i forgot what we talked about but i remember
putting my hand under his shirt...
then slowly sliding it under his jeans and briefs..
and i rested my hand on his hip bone..
then i said are you hard? and wrapped my hand around his penis.
I guess thats where it all began..
I took my hand out and i said
oh, you are a little bit..
and he said" you are huh?"
and i said haha, yeaaaah.....
and he said wait let me fix my shirt...
and i out my hand over my crotch cause i didnt want him to touch it!!!
and he said Omg let me touch it! you touched mine its not fair!
and he said noooo nooo nono no and he said OMG I am going to rape you!!
hahaha, well anyways i took my metal beatles wallet out of my butt pocket cause it was bothering me.
i laid him next to me
and
i kissed his cheek..
then kissed it 2mm or so away from the original placed i had kissed him..
then he started to slowly turn his head towards me and we started to kiss.
.
Right then and there, he will always be the SECOND person I have ever kissed.
as we made out i started to open his jeans and pull his penis out..
I started to stroke him... and he said see I dont have a problem with you touching mine.
and as i did that he started to rub me through my jeans.
he said "you should take a closer look at it"
so, basically I blew him.
AND I HONESTLY THOUGHT I DID A REALLY GOOD JOB!!!
I felt like i did everything by the book!!!
and then we made out, and he took mine out...
and started playing with my balls.. ha
and then i flipped him to get on top of me
and he started to jack me off...
and said ohh you have pre-cum
and i said wtf i do? (I never pre-cum!!)
and he gave me a verrryyyyy good hand job
he said he didnt wanna go down there cause he had a blister
in his mouth.
so, i told him to just give up cause it was gonna take over 20 mins for me to finish..
so then i just rested him on my chest..
and we fell asleep a couple of times
and then i would go to kiss his forhead or head every once in a while
i felt like we were a legit couple..
Ugh ill continue this tomorrow -_-
What had happened, what it meant.
it's very awkward for me to say hook up because never in my life did I think I would be affiliated with one.
I am not one who is comfortable when it comes to intimacy and even making out, yet I did this....
What SUCKS to know is that I wanted this.
I remember getting my first kiss from Jeffrey in the back seat of my car, a place that seems to be significant in my sex life.
thats where ~*thee magic happens*~ as people say.
anyways..
I remember losing my virginity that september.
And I remember Jeffrey and I would always have sex as much as possible and when ever we had the chance.
And that was okay to me because we were in a serious relationship...
Well at the concluding stages of our relationship Rene and I started talking (this is back in February)
and Rene would always bring up how he wanted me to blow him
well that day came, and it was yesterday (Mothers day)
I KNEW! something was gonna happen, which is why I chose to nair/shave.
i swear it took 1 hour or so to get dressed/get ready...
Jessica had gotten caught or watever so she didnt cancelled, and then I was left with "omg what am I gonna do with rene?!"
this was the first day we physically met....and i was soo nervous SO SO SO SO SO nervous! I had tried so hard to avoid "these people". People from my town that are so promiscuous and go around fucking anything with two legs and a pair of balls that show interest in men, hell or even men that dont show interest in other men.
So I go to pick him up and he walks out of his house, as he got closer i was like omg omg omg omg he's coming closer! !@#%!#*%@#$
So he gets in, and we dont make eye contact!! and it was like that the whooole night!
I had music going, and we just talked about some stuff...
I didnt know where I was going, first place that came to mind was the beach Jeffrey and I had our 2nd real moment of intimacy.
After getting lost, we find the beach and I gave him the blanket in my car...
we walked down the staircase and all I could think about was, omg we might do it on this here sand.
We found a bonfire that was fading away and used some debris to keep it going.
we sat on a log, he was wrapped in my blanket, and I was just sitting on the sand with my legs out.
we talked about the past, the present, the future.........
and then he asked if i was cold, and i said a little
I opened my legs apart and told him here, sit between my legs and i wrapped my arms around his tiny body...
i had my hands on his belly fat which was soo cute!
we talked about stuff i just forgot what.
Then he rested his head on my shoulder and then this big bright light lit up from the right of us
and we assumed it meant we had to leave, cause other ppl left too...
So i said, here we can go in the back seat of my car..
and we did.
he rested his head on my shoulder again..
i forgot what we talked about but i remember
putting my hand under his shirt...
then slowly sliding it under his jeans and briefs..
and i rested my hand on his hip bone..
then i said are you hard? and wrapped my hand around his penis.
I guess thats where it all began..
I took my hand out and i said
oh, you are a little bit..
and he said" you are huh?"
and i said haha, yeaaaah.....
and he said wait let me fix my shirt...
and i out my hand over my crotch cause i didnt want him to touch it!!!
and he said Omg let me touch it! you touched mine its not fair!
and he said noooo nooo nono no and he said OMG I am going to rape you!!
hahaha, well anyways i took my metal beatles wallet out of my butt pocket cause it was bothering me.
i laid him next to me
and
i kissed his cheek..
then kissed it 2mm or so away from the original placed i had kissed him..
then he started to slowly turn his head towards me and we started to kiss.
.
Right then and there, he will always be the SECOND person I have ever kissed.
as we made out i started to open his jeans and pull his penis out..
I started to stroke him... and he said see I dont have a problem with you touching mine.
and as i did that he started to rub me through my jeans.
he said "you should take a closer look at it"
so, basically I blew him.
AND I HONESTLY THOUGHT I DID A REALLY GOOD JOB!!!
I felt like i did everything by the book!!!
and then we made out, and he took mine out...
and started playing with my balls.. ha
and then i flipped him to get on top of me
and he started to jack me off...
and said ohh you have pre-cum
and i said wtf i do? (I never pre-cum!!)
and he gave me a verrryyyyy good hand job
he said he didnt wanna go down there cause he had a blister
in his mouth.
so, i told him to just give up cause it was gonna take over 20 mins for me to finish..
so then i just rested him on my chest..
and we fell asleep a couple of times
and then i would go to kiss his forhead or head every once in a while
i felt like we were a legit couple..
Ugh ill continue this tomorrow -_-