cigars in the summer time.
so tonight for about the forth in a row im locked up in my house trying to battle off this cold, I think I ma y have starte o win the battle, my sence of smell is slowly returning. Im cuddled up with my pup it is grand. Its odd, tonight i gave two of my guy friends rlationship advice.....why is it im so good at giving it but so bad at exacuting it? Hm, the other night i went to get on the train and there was this guy playng the accordian, french music to be exact and this train like constrution thing flew by on the tracks it looked like something out of a beatles movie, at that moment I was happy. I miss him, I dont think he cares. I feel like if I tell him how I feel again I'll be a pain. Its been like two years, he bearly gives me time of day, will he ever take me seriously again? can I ever compare to the others? Can I ever redeem myself for what I did? I'm not sure if this is one of thoe things to leave alone or jump into, I dnt want to mess up any chance I have again if there is even one again. Pain.