here we go running in circles, play this game over again

[chrychry05]

i feel like im wasting my fuckign itme, energy, all that shit. what the fuck was i fuckign thinking. what the fuck. so fucking frustrated with so many different things right now, its ridiculous... what gets me is i keep thinking that maybe just maybe its different, that im not wasting my time,t hat im actually going to get somewhere.. but not. not this time, probably not any time.. why? why do i continusiously make the same fucking errors..

makes me almost angry...

i almost feel as though im jumping to conclusions,a nd if i am, then im terribly sorry, and you can forget i even said anything, maybe its just be being insecure, but what would you think? what would u assume if things were happening the way they are? since i cant tlak to you, maybe this is the only way to get through to you. aloha