AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
MY SISTER GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT!!!!!! AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!! :'( Okay... getting ahead of myself... I need to start from the beginning...
Okay, today has been the craziest day of ups and downs I've ever had, IN MY LIFE.
Alright! So I get up this morning, and I go, "EEeeww.... It's early. :( Yuck."
So I'm kindof in a bad mood when I get to school. (Not really bad, more like ...blah.) and then I remember that I have to go sing at the Regalitta(sp?). So I walk in to sing the national anthem and I'm kindof nervous, because it's early and my voice has been screwy lately... But I manage to crank it out somehow and then I ask Mr.Singer if I can stay and watch the boats. He's all like, "Oh! Yeah! You're already signed out for all day!"
Me: "SCOOOOOORE!!!!!!!" :D
So I was sittin' around watching the boats (It was both fun and amusing, btw. ^^) When one of the other girls on the staff is like, "I'm hungry, lets go out and get McDonalds" And I was thinking..."Um... is that allowed...?" And then a gaurd came up to us and chewed us out so we went back inside. Then I felt all bad because Mr.Singer got in trouble because of me, and he had been SO nice to let me stay the whole day when I really only participated for ... what, a minute? If that? And THEN they started doing the actual fighting/dodgeball on their boats(which were all made out of cardboard, btw.) And it was SOOO much fun to watch!!! :D I was getting all into it... -^_____^- It was fun fun fun. So I got out of school feeling all, YIPPIE!!!! :D And then I came home and things settled down a bit so I was starting to mellow out. Then it was time for the choir concert, so I got all nervous for that again... And somehow I managed to pull off my solo... (God knows how I do it.)
THEN! I watched the Fraser Singers perform, and watched the whole 'Goodbye Seniors' thing... I was sobbing. Sobbing sobbing sobbing. So then I run onstage to see my lovely Fraser Singer friends... (Anna, Krystina, Danielle, Danny... I'M GOING TO MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!) More sobbing and sadness... but... somehow happy, because... we were happy?! I don't know. All I know is that the tears didn't stop coming. For whatever reason it might have been. and THEN I was all excited for next year when I was going to be in Fraser Singers..(YAY! ^^) And then my mom said I could go out to Red Robin with, almost, the entire choir. :D So I was like, "WOOP WOOP!!!!! :D"
THEN we call my sister up and tell her that we're going to the Robin and she can meet us if she wants. She says yes and says she's very hungry and will meet us there. Then I called her back again to ask her if she wanted to call up some friends to meet there, and at the end of this conversation, I say,
"Be safe."
I never say 'be safe'. Never! The one time I do...
SHE GETS INTO A CAR ACCIDENT.
I'm never telling ANYONE to be safe AGAIN. XP Ever. So we get to Red Robin and my mom is outside on her cell phone and I was a little confused because she usually doesn't answer her cell phone at all, but... whatever. ^^ I was really excited about being able to hang out with my friends I didn't pay much attention. So then she comes in and tells me Alanna got into an accident.
...
I wasn't really sure how to react.
I mean, my sister, my SISTER, just got into a car accident.
I'm still giddy from being with friends, does this make me a bad sister? Should I be guilty? Should I be worried? Should I be upset or stressed? Should I just figure she's okay and try NOT to get upset?!?!?!? I was so horribly confused. All I knew was that it was bad. So my mom went out to get her, and she was okay, but my mom's car was totaled. (The one time my mom and sister switch cars, is when she gets into the accident... yet another rather strange phenomenon...) So I stay at the Robin till my mom comes back with Alanna. I go out to see her and she's fine except her arm really hurts. Mom says she's taking her to the hospital and I asked if I could hitch a ride with Krystina. She said that was fine and then my mom and sister left again. So I stayed at the Robin until it was time to go, and Krystina drove me home. We had a lovely little girl talk on the way, and then she dropped me off. So I found a message on the machine from my mom saying, "I'm at the hospital with your sister, call me" So I did. She wasn't sure how long they were going to stay, but soon after they called me again and said there were on their way home.
So...
Here I am...
Typing about it, and hoping it helps...
God I am SO confused... I don't even know what I'm feeling. Or what I'm supposed to be feeling at all...
I feel so strangled with different emotions... but at the same time, so very empty...
:'(
Help!
Okay, today has been the craziest day of ups and downs I've ever had, IN MY LIFE.
Alright! So I get up this morning, and I go, "EEeeww.... It's early. :( Yuck."
So I'm kindof in a bad mood when I get to school. (Not really bad, more like ...blah.) and then I remember that I have to go sing at the Regalitta(sp?). So I walk in to sing the national anthem and I'm kindof nervous, because it's early and my voice has been screwy lately... But I manage to crank it out somehow and then I ask Mr.Singer if I can stay and watch the boats. He's all like, "Oh! Yeah! You're already signed out for all day!"
Me: "SCOOOOOORE!!!!!!!" :D
So I was sittin' around watching the boats (It was both fun and amusing, btw. ^^) When one of the other girls on the staff is like, "I'm hungry, lets go out and get McDonalds" And I was thinking..."Um... is that allowed...?" And then a gaurd came up to us and chewed us out so we went back inside. Then I felt all bad because Mr.Singer got in trouble because of me, and he had been SO nice to let me stay the whole day when I really only participated for ... what, a minute? If that? And THEN they started doing the actual fighting/dodgeball on their boats(which were all made out of cardboard, btw.) And it was SOOO much fun to watch!!! :D I was getting all into it... -^_____^- It was fun fun fun. So I got out of school feeling all, YIPPIE!!!! :D And then I came home and things settled down a bit so I was starting to mellow out. Then it was time for the choir concert, so I got all nervous for that again... And somehow I managed to pull off my solo... (God knows how I do it.)
THEN! I watched the Fraser Singers perform, and watched the whole 'Goodbye Seniors' thing... I was sobbing. Sobbing sobbing sobbing. So then I run onstage to see my lovely Fraser Singer friends... (Anna, Krystina, Danielle, Danny... I'M GOING TO MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!) More sobbing and sadness... but... somehow happy, because... we were happy?! I don't know. All I know is that the tears didn't stop coming. For whatever reason it might have been. and THEN I was all excited for next year when I was going to be in Fraser Singers..(YAY! ^^) And then my mom said I could go out to Red Robin with, almost, the entire choir. :D So I was like, "WOOP WOOP!!!!! :D"
THEN we call my sister up and tell her that we're going to the Robin and she can meet us if she wants. She says yes and says she's very hungry and will meet us there. Then I called her back again to ask her if she wanted to call up some friends to meet there, and at the end of this conversation, I say,
"Be safe."
I never say 'be safe'. Never! The one time I do...
SHE GETS INTO A CAR ACCIDENT.
I'm never telling ANYONE to be safe AGAIN. XP Ever. So we get to Red Robin and my mom is outside on her cell phone and I was a little confused because she usually doesn't answer her cell phone at all, but... whatever. ^^ I was really excited about being able to hang out with my friends I didn't pay much attention. So then she comes in and tells me Alanna got into an accident.
...
I wasn't really sure how to react.
I mean, my sister, my SISTER, just got into a car accident.
I'm still giddy from being with friends, does this make me a bad sister? Should I be guilty? Should I be worried? Should I be upset or stressed? Should I just figure she's okay and try NOT to get upset?!?!?!? I was so horribly confused. All I knew was that it was bad. So my mom went out to get her, and she was okay, but my mom's car was totaled. (The one time my mom and sister switch cars, is when she gets into the accident... yet another rather strange phenomenon...) So I stay at the Robin till my mom comes back with Alanna. I go out to see her and she's fine except her arm really hurts. Mom says she's taking her to the hospital and I asked if I could hitch a ride with Krystina. She said that was fine and then my mom and sister left again. So I stayed at the Robin until it was time to go, and Krystina drove me home. We had a lovely little girl talk on the way, and then she dropped me off. So I found a message on the machine from my mom saying, "I'm at the hospital with your sister, call me" So I did. She wasn't sure how long they were going to stay, but soon after they called me again and said there were on their way home.
So...
Here I am...
Typing about it, and hoping it helps...
God I am SO confused... I don't even know what I'm feeling. Or what I'm supposed to be feeling at all...
I feel so strangled with different emotions... but at the same time, so very empty...
:'(
Help!