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lets see. i guess im back to this nonsense of a journal. so many things have changed and i dunno where to begin. lets start w/ the bad. okay, so i got a dui. biiiig whoopie. dont really care. i can still drive and my court date isnt until the 25th (of march.). i got into humboldt. thats exciting. the only college i wanted to go to. basically to get out of mb. i thought of going to santa monica but that would only fuck me up more, considering i wouldnt try. my dad was happy about that. we went to dinner to celebrate tonight. got a new pair of chanels. yay for me. i needed em for my italy trip. cant wait for that either. im a little upset at the fact that i called a good friend tonight to see how "he/she" was, but i pretty much felt like i was being annoying. i got negative feedback. that was the only downfall of the night. i went to kevons lil paddys day bash, which was chill. had a few beers, which according to my therapist, isnt existent. i kinda told my whole fam that im sober since my whole "dui incident" but fortunately, im not. who cares. i dont have a problem, leave me alone. im not some fuck up. anywho life is grand and i cant wait to move. cant wait to get to my future of "humboldtness"...if there is such a thing. im single at the moment, which to my surprise is to my liking. i also feel like i want to be w/ someone, that is, until im w/ them...just my luck i suppose. i seem to think that attractiveness equals feelings, so i need to get my shit straight, b4 i screw myself over, like i have been. someone the other day called me a "player", kinda makes be laugh. i guess its true. guys are only good for one thing, if yuh know what i mean, and since im trying out this, whats it called?...umm abstinence thing, guys are useless. i do enjoy the company of one person in perticular, but we only spend an hour together a day. pretty shitty if you ask me. oh and i dream about him a lot. recently i decided that boys w/ tats are bad, but i guess i can settle for a boy w/ one tattoo. especially since his is actually meaningful, not just some bullshit excuse to get ink in your arm. ha! so i dunno anymore...i just dont know who i should go to prom w/...i mean, am i suppost to ask someone? not even that prom is close, but still its always on my mind. i need balls. balls to ask someone out. ugh, well on a lighter note, im fucked up...("no i dont have a problem") im going to pass out, hopefully dream of the one tat'd guy who actually makes me laugh and smile just thinking about him. night yall