Intense Dream

[chroniclesofmay]

wow, ok so last night i had this crazy crazy dream. it was about a guy i like, but im going to keep that part under wraps, so im going to say his name is..."Pete", lol. This is what happened. So it was my 18th birthday party and i guess i threw it at my moms house. and her backyard was her backyard before she got the pool so there was like grass and stuff. i had all my friends from costa there. i was inside on the computer and was looking outside and i saw everyone hanging out. i noticed that kenz and Pete were sitting really close to each other and as i studied them more carefully i noticed that he was kissing her neck and like she was sitting on his lap and holding his hand. i was SO hurt. i went outside and went up to kenz and was like, omg how could you do this to me? you know how i feel about pete, why would you hurt me like this? i got so upset that i told everyone that they had to leave and the party was over. i remember jimmy being there and i told him to leave just because i didnt like him, lol (but jimmy is cool in real life, i dont have a problem w/ him). so pete came up to me after i yelled at everyone and was like, i never liked you, i dont even think you're pretty, blah blah blah, all hurtful things that im afraid are true in real life. so we end up deciding to go on a car drive to talk stuff out. we get in a car, which is exactly like morgans and start driving down the driveway. my mom usually has a gate at the end of her driveway so you have to get out of the car and open it. but somehow there were 2 gates. i told someone who was leaving to open the gates and let us out and when they did, they let my dogs out. so i had to get out of the car and put them back in. while i was doing that Pete drove away. i kinda ran after him, screaming like what the hell, and tried to wave him down. for some reason i got all this energy in me and started running in the opposite direction. and i mean running hard, and fast too. i got down my street in no time and when i looked behind me Pete was there chasing after me. but i just kept running my heart out. it felt so good to just get away and almost be free from him. the next thing i knew i was running into this really tall grass. it started moving like a rip tide and was pulling me in. i tried getting out, but i was stuck. when i looked behind again, pete was there reaching for me trying to get me out. our arms were outstretched towards one another but i couldnt reach him, the grass was swirling around me and wouldnt let me free. finally after a tough struggle, we grabbed ahold of each other, and he pulled me out. the next thing i knew i woke up.
i dunno what this means, but it has a lot of symbolism in it that i really dont wanna talk about right now. its just so weird that all these little details that happened are relevant to my life...