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I have been reading a few post about how christmas has lost it's shine. It's true, I felt that way before christmas. I remember I felt very lost and very empty even. I was alone for most of the break and was having a hard time with G-d, lots of arguments. But now, it's funny...I look back and think I enjoyed this christmas very much so. I remember at christmas eve I got to open a few presents and though I didn't get what I wanted, I was content (I even thought that that was all the presents I was suppose to get). I loved being with my Aunt and Uncle. My mom always gets mad at my uncle. On Christmas day we went to my Uncle and Aunt's house and got to eat a bunch of white people food (which I don't eat that often, I love it when I get to eat it). Mr. and Mrs. Hall come, Evan (Mrs. Hall's son) and a bunch of people I don't know by name. We all eat, and watch the basketball game. This christmas I even got presents on chrsitmas day (which I usually, do, but not what I want). This year, I got a USB condenser mic with is just a fancy way of saying "I can record my music now." After that, we sing christmas carols while Mr. Hall plays piano (he plays amazing, great jazz stuff). My uncle, me, and chris play guitar with him. One year, one or two couple began to slow dance while Mr. Hall was playing. It's just fun to be with everyone. I feel so relaxed and peaceful. I love it! In the end, just like every year, Christmas was beautiful when I look back on it. I realized that what I had there could easily die, and family is not immortal. I looked at my grandparents and realized they could die the next die. I looked at all the food and realized in a few years I might not be eating this food for a while. I realized that this was my last Christmas I would have while still living in town (possible at least) and realized how much G-d blessed me with the family I have, even we are just a bunch of white racist folk (lolz..).