Holy glass cases of emotion! Yes, ’tis be sad announcement *sobs*
YAY! \o/ I’M NOT DEAD! :D Unlike some people who didn’t deserve it. I love and miss you, t_hikari ;_; Anyway, since I’m not dead, let me post this announcement, along with a cute Changmin avatar as a peace offering ;_;
So! Who wants a fanfic? :D Oh, you all want one, don’t you? >:D Sadly, I can’t give you one D: At least, not at any time soon ;3;
So allow me to officially announce my first hiatus! \o/
I’m not sure what to feel here. I mean, of course I’m sad because I’m not gonna be posting (underlined, italized and BOLDED for you guys to read and understand) fics for a while but I’m kinda happy because it’s the first time I’m taking a hiatus. So … conflicting emotions?
(Expect more of that^ to come in this post \o/)
But first, let me make some things clear.
1) I’m not going to be posting fics for a while (aren’t I already doing that?), not not writing them. I’m still writing fics, it’s just that everyone and their mother know that I can’t really stay focused on one thing and I tend to rather jump around with anything I do, like fic writing. Hence, the reason why I start a lot of fics but never finish them or take a long time to write requests. That or I’m usually stuck at don’t know how to continue ._.
2) No, this is not because of personal problems. It’s not because of any problems at all, actually. My personal life is fine and I can handle my schoolwork liar, but that’s because I’m in the first year of college and I don’t have any major subjects yet. Come 2014 and then we’ll see \o/
3) I feel like I’m betraying the TVXQ fandom ;_; You see, I’ve never really been vocal about it, but I’ve always been a fan of EXO. One of my K-Pop problems is that once I discover a new band and fall in love with them, my current love for the band will eventually fade. This happened to BIGBANG and 2NE1 when I discovered SHINee, and SHINee when I discovered TVXQ. Bands like B2ST, MBLAQ, SISTAR, SNSD, After School and f(x) caught my attention as well, but not so strongly to the point where I would actually write fics about them. I mean, I draw them (except for MBLEAST), but my love for them isn’t so strong. I was actually hoping that if I don’t fangirl over EXO like how I usually would when I love a new band, my love for them won’t grow to how it is now. Stupid comeback making my think and feel things.
I love the TVXQ fandom, I really do. You guys are great and you make me smile. And because of that, I’m going to try and find ways to fall in love with them again. You guys can help me :D I mean, I was even more excited for EXO’s comeback rather than TVXQ’s new Japanese single (which was Ocean). I got reprimanded for that by a friend tho -_- I think you know who you are >:(
4) This is somewhat relevant to the point above. With that said, I’m going to write for the EXO fandom soon (I’ve been wanting to join a long time ago but I was just so shy xD), specifically the TaoRis pairing and maybe the SeKai pairing (yes, I love SeKai, not HunHan. COME AT ME) but I’ll still write for the TVXQ fandom. Well, that is. Hopefully ;_; I stopped writing for the SHINee fandom since I found TVXQ, which was around two years ago wow I am so late. Some of you guys still have requests for me and I’m sorry to say that I’m not reliable enough to have them done on time. I’m sorry. You guys should find someone better, but I was honored and still am if you would still give me a chance to write your requests. I have horrible time management, I’m sorry ;________;
So actually, now that I think about it, this isn’t really a hiatus (sad ’beause it was my first time taking a ‘hiatus’ /o\), more like letting you people know about my K-Pop problems and why I’m not posting fics recently. If it’s still not clear to you, it’s because of lack of time management. Or something similar. I don’t even know why I’m not posting fics as much as I want to OTL I want to post fics, I really do, but I can’t do that if I have a thousand and one fics still in my workspace and not completing them. I have over twenty requests and over fifty unfinished fics with a good plot, I swear they have good plots ;A; I don’t finish them because I feel like I can’t do them enough justice and also because I always have new ideas. Always. When I’m done with writing five fics, maybe I’ll post them like in a go or something. But you guys have to promise to read it and COMMENT. OMG, I’M GETTING LESS COMMENTS. IS MY WRITING GETTING RUSTY? DO PEOPLE NOT LIKE MY FICS ANYMORE? SHOULD I EVEN BOTHER? ;A; Yes, those are the thoughts running in my head when I get little comments.
Speaking of comments, I’ve been getting lesser and lesser comments and that makes me feel as if my writing’s not that good anymore when, ironically, the grammar and interaction between the characters are much better than when I had first started writing fics three years ago ;_; But seriously though, comment. I’m not being overly-dramatic with my above reaction, but truthfully honest. Comments are, in a way, feedback and a way to let people know that you actually read their stuff. New writers don’t really get comments unless their first fic was really good (people like blosoms and xxfergiexx \o/), and that usually dampens their confidence because it seems as if people didn’t bother to read their fic(s). I felt that way when I first wrote for the TVXQ fandom, and I felt so lucky when people commented. In a way, this is also asking for support because should I write in the EXO fandom, will you guys still comment on the fics? With that said, do you guys mind if I post EXO fics in the comm or do you want the comm to specifically be HoMin / MinHo and I just take my non-HoMin fics and post them in my journal because I’m a traitor or something? ;3; Okay, I really need your comments this time, I don’t know what you guys want me to do \;_;/
I’m sorry, but when I return from my ‘hiatus’, I swear I’ll post fics more constantly. Stupid eyes seeing things that can make things into ideas. Stupid ears hearing things that can make things into ideas. Stupid brain and you making me write these stupid ideas that I still never finish.
With that last glass case of emotion GIF, I’m officially taking my not-exactly-a-hiatus-but-idk-what-you-call-it-so-let’s-just-call-it-a-fake-hiatus hiatus ;_;
Hopefully when I return, I’ll be more consistent with my fic-posting :">