i see youre not interested in me
Firstly:
Happy Birthday Jeremyy!!! 22 isnt as bad as you think it is. i love you :]
Here we go again.
I hate that I'm feeling like I used to feel. Just randomly getting into a bad mood for no real reason and not being able to pull myself out of it until like a day or two later. For a while I got really good at just letting things go and trying to ignore them but its getting back to that point where i cant just let it everything roll off my shoulders. Ive hurt at least two people in the past 2 weeks and I fucking hate that feeling. I hate the fact that I apparently cant get over something that happened to me a while ago and that it controls my relationships with other people. im so used to getting what i want that when it doesnt happen i act like its the end of the world. i honestly did really want it to work but my life sucks too much for that to happen. im being dramatic but it really seems like things never really work out quite how i wish they would.
I'm lucky to have really close friends that are honestly amazing. but sometimes i feel that i would do anything ever for them and i dont really feel like i would get the same in return. to be extremely cliche, i feel like i hand my heart to people and get it thrown back at me in pieces.
and just for future reference, i dont really hate everyone. i love my friends so much; its just sometimes i feel really alone.
Happy Birthday Jeremyy!!! 22 isnt as bad as you think it is. i love you :]
Here we go again.
I hate that I'm feeling like I used to feel. Just randomly getting into a bad mood for no real reason and not being able to pull myself out of it until like a day or two later. For a while I got really good at just letting things go and trying to ignore them but its getting back to that point where i cant just let it everything roll off my shoulders. Ive hurt at least two people in the past 2 weeks and I fucking hate that feeling. I hate the fact that I apparently cant get over something that happened to me a while ago and that it controls my relationships with other people. im so used to getting what i want that when it doesnt happen i act like its the end of the world. i honestly did really want it to work but my life sucks too much for that to happen. im being dramatic but it really seems like things never really work out quite how i wish they would.
I'm lucky to have really close friends that are honestly amazing. but sometimes i feel that i would do anything ever for them and i dont really feel like i would get the same in return. to be extremely cliche, i feel like i hand my heart to people and get it thrown back at me in pieces.
and just for future reference, i dont really hate everyone. i love my friends so much; its just sometimes i feel really alone.