Thank you, videogames
Don't know why but for the past several weeks, every time I wake up I have this crappy feeling... like I'm frustrated, but for no valid reason. Maybe because I don't have much that I look forward to doing (besides work, sadly). It's not so bad on weekdays because I'd not have much time to mull over what to do -- the moment I'm up I'm rushing off to work, and before I know it, the day is gone. I somehow hate the feeling of waking up on weekends... when I don't have much planned to do. But it's not like there's nothing to do. There are many things to do (that I should be doing as well), but I just don't seem to have the mood or motivation to do anything at all!
When I woke up on Saturday, I was rolling around in bed with that familiar crappy feeling of not having the mood to do anything. Then for some odd reason, I thought about Baldur's Gate II. That drove me to get out of bed to install it. Was crossing my fingers, hoping that it'll work on my notebook that runs Vista. 4 install discs later, it was time to launch the game.
And oh my Lord does it look sweet. When I first played the game 8 years ago, it was on a lower end machine. I thought the game already looked pretty spanking good back then. But now it's truly in its full glory... and it looks absolutely breathtaking.
Played Baldur's Gate II till the wee hours of the morning (like 7am ugh) -- had to pry myself away from the PC to go to bed. Usually if I sleep hours like this I'd wake up feeling like the crappiness has magnified.
But oooh... today I woke up feeling great. Never had this feeling for weeks already! And for some reason, I suddenly have the mood and motivation to do the things that I should be doing. What a great feeling!
All the crappiness that I had felt for the past several weeks have disappeared. I now feel like a joint-smoking hippie with a flower in my hand that I finally have the motivation to be productive!
Strange, but true. Haven't been playing videogames for weeks now (aha! so that's whyyy)... well, I know that it usually takes away my frustrations, but never quite know it can also motivate me. LOL o_O