change is gonna come
to say the least, this is been a challenging month, and a challenging year for that matter. it's been over three weeks since dance marathon, yet things are still in high gear transitioning from the old directors to the new directors. free time has been absolutely non-existant in my life (mostly because i like it that way!) but now i'm facing a very different senior year than i expected. having come to the revelation last weekend that my heart's not really into going to med school and also facing two major disappointments with harmonettes and dance marathon has forced me to rethink why i'm doing what i am. i'm just absolutely confused right now and the hardest part is that all year i've been working so hard at things besides my friendships that i'm suddenly feeling very on my own with this.
a year ago at this time i was excited for the new opportunities that i had been blessed to have. a spring in NELP, a summer with my great housemates, and a year of academic, extracurricular, and personal challenges aren't experiences i would ever take back, but i wonder now if things had played out differently last april if i would be in this same place now.
i haven't felt this uncomfortable in my own skin for a long time, but my major motivation is that from all of this i have learned that what people respect in a leader is focus and transparency. humility makes people questions your motives and your commitment more than you would expect, which is unfortunate, but a reality that has been made clear to me through observing the relationships between people all around me this year.
and so i turn to the wise words of my loving father, "if it doesn't kill you it will only make you stronger."
a year ago at this time i was excited for the new opportunities that i had been blessed to have. a spring in NELP, a summer with my great housemates, and a year of academic, extracurricular, and personal challenges aren't experiences i would ever take back, but i wonder now if things had played out differently last april if i would be in this same place now.
i haven't felt this uncomfortable in my own skin for a long time, but my major motivation is that from all of this i have learned that what people respect in a leader is focus and transparency. humility makes people questions your motives and your commitment more than you would expect, which is unfortunate, but a reality that has been made clear to me through observing the relationships between people all around me this year.
and so i turn to the wise words of my loving father, "if it doesn't kill you it will only make you stronger."