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Its weird thinking that I could be expecting a call anytime now saying to come to the hospital because Kirsten would be in labor. That day is going to change so much for me. I just keep thinking on how I was never truely there for Kirsten while she has been pregnant. I've been to caught up in everything but her and the baby. To me, that's horrible. Who puts other people and everything else before that? I'm afraid I'm going to be a bad father. What if I don't do the right thing or I'm not around enough? Maybe I'm just thinking a little too much on this, but isn't that normal?
I guess I just want to be to my son what my dad was never to me. I know I make a lot of entries talking about this stuff but it's just complicating for me. I'm only 19 and within the next few weeks I'll have a son. I don't know what I'm going to go then. Kirsten and I agreed to switch off every few weeks but what kind of life is that? Who wants to do that? That's a pain. Maybe I'll have to give up my life here, in New York to move to LA and be there for him. Isn't that the right thing to do?
Chris
I guess I just want to be to my son what my dad was never to me. I know I make a lot of entries talking about this stuff but it's just complicating for me. I'm only 19 and within the next few weeks I'll have a son. I don't know what I'm going to go then. Kirsten and I agreed to switch off every few weeks but what kind of life is that? Who wants to do that? That's a pain. Maybe I'll have to give up my life here, in New York to move to LA and be there for him. Isn't that the right thing to do?
Chris