Don't get too close
I have kept my distance independent on my own
A superficial witness with love I touch and go
Could it be for my own protection I have only gone half way?
Could it be my fear of rejection drove your love away?
Crowded room of people I pretend to know
I’d rather be a stranger, I choose to walk alone
Could it be living on the outside is much more than I can take?
Honestly I reach for affection but it only slips away
I say don’t get too close, protect yourself from love
It’s hard to stay afloat when you try and you try and you try
I say don’t get to close, protect yourself from love
And I find it hurts the most when you try and you try and you try and you’re not close enough
I think I like this song because it represents a part of me that I don't really show. I may seem like I am open and carefree, but really it's a masque. I'm actually very frightened of connecting with someone else. One of the hardest things I could ever do is love someone and have the courage to let them love me back. I don't let my friends know how scared I am of the fact that I truly believe they they will want to walk away from me at any given moment. Most times I feel like a stranger, like an alien. I lay at awake at night and obsess over relationships and friendships and memories and feelings and experiences. I feel that no one can truly know or understand the heart of an anxious person who isn't grounded and doesn't know where she stands in the lives of her closest friends. Sometimes it's so bad that I go into the bathroom and imagine throwing up everything I ate that day just get relief from it all- almost as if it would purge the negative feelings from my body and I wouldn't have to deal with them anymore. I haven't done it yet, but I fear it will be soon when my rational mind doesn't take over and I give in to the anxiety.
I think I choose the wrong people. But it's only because in a way they are safe: the ones who can't reciprocate, the ones who aren't available and the ones who don't want me. It's all a way for me not to make a total decision/committment.
There is such a dark side to me. And I'm in it right now.
A superficial witness with love I touch and go
Could it be for my own protection I have only gone half way?
Could it be my fear of rejection drove your love away?
Crowded room of people I pretend to know
I’d rather be a stranger, I choose to walk alone
Could it be living on the outside is much more than I can take?
Honestly I reach for affection but it only slips away
I say don’t get too close, protect yourself from love
It’s hard to stay afloat when you try and you try and you try
I say don’t get to close, protect yourself from love
And I find it hurts the most when you try and you try and you try and you’re not close enough
I think I like this song because it represents a part of me that I don't really show. I may seem like I am open and carefree, but really it's a masque. I'm actually very frightened of connecting with someone else. One of the hardest things I could ever do is love someone and have the courage to let them love me back. I don't let my friends know how scared I am of the fact that I truly believe they they will want to walk away from me at any given moment. Most times I feel like a stranger, like an alien. I lay at awake at night and obsess over relationships and friendships and memories and feelings and experiences. I feel that no one can truly know or understand the heart of an anxious person who isn't grounded and doesn't know where she stands in the lives of her closest friends. Sometimes it's so bad that I go into the bathroom and imagine throwing up everything I ate that day just get relief from it all- almost as if it would purge the negative feelings from my body and I wouldn't have to deal with them anymore. I haven't done it yet, but I fear it will be soon when my rational mind doesn't take over and I give in to the anxiety.
I think I choose the wrong people. But it's only because in a way they are safe: the ones who can't reciprocate, the ones who aren't available and the ones who don't want me. It's all a way for me not to make a total decision/committment.
There is such a dark side to me. And I'm in it right now.