Relinquishing control, for good...
What a day.
These last few days of the semester will be crazy, but I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm not quite ready for a semester in review entry yet, (we'll save that for a bored moment in Fenton over break...), but it's been a while since I've updated.
My emotions were playing tricks on me today - I don't like when I'm not in control of how I feel, and that's been happening to me quite a lot lately. For the most part, these out-of-control emotions have been very positive (and scary) ones, but today, they were mostly sad. I can't change what happened, and I don't want to, but I just hate that I've caused others pain. I can't handle it. It drives me crazy that I'm so happy and others aren't. I wish I could make everything okay...but I can't. And that bothers me. In the same respect, I hate the thought of burdening others with my problems, too - what good does that do anybody?
Yes, I'm a control freak. I believe I've mentioned that before.
Time heals all...I just need to give it time. And I need to not feel bad for feeling good...does that make sense?
I just finished my portfolio (for the most part) for Death and Dying class...what a relief!! A weight has been lifted...
The hot chocolate I'm drinking is almost as amazing as the man who suggested it in the first place. A mint hershey's kiss in the bottom? Genius! (way to go, Cowboy...)
I'm still waiting for a catch.
It's been nearly two months, and I'm still waiting for a catch.
Is sheer joy attainable?
With every moment spent watching the snowflakes, every breakfast slaved over together, every laugh, kiss, serenade and gaze, I think I'm closer to that answer than I've ever been before.
I like it.
This girl needs some sleep, it's been a long day. Sweet dreams, everyone!
These last few days of the semester will be crazy, but I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm not quite ready for a semester in review entry yet, (we'll save that for a bored moment in Fenton over break...), but it's been a while since I've updated.
My emotions were playing tricks on me today - I don't like when I'm not in control of how I feel, and that's been happening to me quite a lot lately. For the most part, these out-of-control emotions have been very positive (and scary) ones, but today, they were mostly sad. I can't change what happened, and I don't want to, but I just hate that I've caused others pain. I can't handle it. It drives me crazy that I'm so happy and others aren't. I wish I could make everything okay...but I can't. And that bothers me. In the same respect, I hate the thought of burdening others with my problems, too - what good does that do anybody?
Yes, I'm a control freak. I believe I've mentioned that before.
Time heals all...I just need to give it time. And I need to not feel bad for feeling good...does that make sense?
I just finished my portfolio (for the most part) for Death and Dying class...what a relief!! A weight has been lifted...
The hot chocolate I'm drinking is almost as amazing as the man who suggested it in the first place. A mint hershey's kiss in the bottom? Genius! (way to go, Cowboy...)
I'm still waiting for a catch.
It's been nearly two months, and I'm still waiting for a catch.
Is sheer joy attainable?
With every moment spent watching the snowflakes, every breakfast slaved over together, every laugh, kiss, serenade and gaze, I think I'm closer to that answer than I've ever been before.
I like it.
This girl needs some sleep, it's been a long day. Sweet dreams, everyone!