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After this whole court thing with the ex Asshole, I have found myself damn having panick attacks. I am pretty sure it's because I feel like I may get stuck living in the town I live in when it comes to the whole divorce thing. I dont want to live in this town anymore, its not like any of my friends give a flying fuck with the exception of maybe a few people. I need to make a clean break and a new start. I am really really dissapointed with the court system here for letting a wife/child abusing sociopath go. damn I gotta get outta here. I want to see some different faces and actually have some positive shit happen. My mom is leaving after have been away from her home for 6 years. I know she is depressed she will be leavig her grandchildren but, I think she is just sick of my sister's shit. I will miss her greatly and will feel a great deal of loss when she goes. I think her dealing with cancer really put things into perspective for her. I think she will actually enjoy her own home and her own things. I will hopefully go down there in July if I am lucky so I can go to the beach which I didnt get to go to the last time I was there. Things with my beau is going well,we have similiar things in common but, he isnt really as active as I am. I Like going outside and walking and going to different places but, he just likes to sit at home. I am kinda getting sick of that whole routine. Man, I got a headache!
