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well i am drunk. just a little cuz i think i am incapable of being drunk afer what i have been through this weekend.
i have found out that some drugs are more serious than i think. serious enough that i may go to jail. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. i cant imagine being in jail. but when i was in jail for the night i met some awesome, hot inmates. too bad if i end up there ill be stuck in the womans ward. whatever. one got my address. maybe i will have my inmate penpal after all.
i also found out that you can be there for someone with all your might. i helped out a friend in need as much as i could. i dropped everything for him for an entire week. because he was scared. well now i am scared and i have worse things ahead of me than he did. does he care? nooooooooooooooo has he helped me at all? noooooooooooo where is he now? oh, he went to eastern. asshole. i hate him. i say that now, but tomorrow? who knows. i wish that i could stick to it.
anyway, i consider myself lucky, even th0ough i for sure have a misdemeanor charge for sure and a possible felony charge. i am taking collections to help pay for lawyer fees and such. doubt ill get any. things could have been worse. alot worse. for those of you who have no ised what i am talking about, you will prolly find out through the grape vine. it works quickly.
anyway, i feel i have held up well so far. onyl cried the night i had to stay in jail. i wonder why. i was completely sober and i remember and will never forget the experience of being in jail. well it was crazy. it would have been fun if i were a spectator. but i wasnt and it basically sucked.
well i am venting and you know what? it feels good. so if you dont wanna hear it stop reading. i wanna go to church tomorrow to repent my sins. i still have hope i wont become a felon. i already have no chance to ever be a teacher. it could have been a lot worse, considering i had enough other shit on me to have a 2nd felony charge.
i woke up this morning hoping everything that happened was a dream. i am still waiting for the nightmare to end. and i dont think it will anytime soon.
ok, im done.
i have found out that some drugs are more serious than i think. serious enough that i may go to jail. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. i cant imagine being in jail. but when i was in jail for the night i met some awesome, hot inmates. too bad if i end up there ill be stuck in the womans ward. whatever. one got my address. maybe i will have my inmate penpal after all.
i also found out that you can be there for someone with all your might. i helped out a friend in need as much as i could. i dropped everything for him for an entire week. because he was scared. well now i am scared and i have worse things ahead of me than he did. does he care? nooooooooooooooo has he helped me at all? noooooooooooo where is he now? oh, he went to eastern. asshole. i hate him. i say that now, but tomorrow? who knows. i wish that i could stick to it.
anyway, i consider myself lucky, even th0ough i for sure have a misdemeanor charge for sure and a possible felony charge. i am taking collections to help pay for lawyer fees and such. doubt ill get any. things could have been worse. alot worse. for those of you who have no ised what i am talking about, you will prolly find out through the grape vine. it works quickly.
anyway, i feel i have held up well so far. onyl cried the night i had to stay in jail. i wonder why. i was completely sober and i remember and will never forget the experience of being in jail. well it was crazy. it would have been fun if i were a spectator. but i wasnt and it basically sucked.
well i am venting and you know what? it feels good. so if you dont wanna hear it stop reading. i wanna go to church tomorrow to repent my sins. i still have hope i wont become a felon. i already have no chance to ever be a teacher. it could have been a lot worse, considering i had enough other shit on me to have a 2nd felony charge.
i woke up this morning hoping everything that happened was a dream. i am still waiting for the nightmare to end. and i dont think it will anytime soon.
ok, im done.