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So I think I'm finally having my "freaking out about college" emotional breakdown. A year later. I was just reading today and it got me thinking about friends and family and what not. It made me think about all the people here that I hate and I can't stand and how things weren't as easy as they were last year. My GPA is suffering, I'm probably going to fail 2 of 4 of my classes. Even if I do try, which I always do, I'm just not that smart I guess. I'm tired of people telling me how hard their classes are and how advanced they are and how smart they are, when I can barely pass fuckin general chemistry or calc 1. I'm not good at anything, I don't know how I'm going to get anywhere in life. I never thought I'd say this but I miss my family terribly. I hear all the time about how people hate their parents, when really they dont know how lucky they are. They get to see their dad more than a week out of the whole fucking year. I've actually been seriously considering transfering to somewhere like LSU or somewhere close to my dad next fall. I need a fresh start again, I need to go somewhere where people don't know how fucked up I am. I don't know what to do, I just need someone to talk to.