fuck
This is the worst day of my summer and if any other day is like this I am just going to go ahead and shoot myself. I got to work at 11 this morning feeling like shit for something that I did that was really stupid last night that I still feel really bad about, and I will feel bad until I talk to the person I feel like I wronged I guess. Anyway so I spend the crappiest day at work. And I get home at 5 try to call my dad or my brother they don't answer, try to call danielle, she doesn't answer, try to call Grady and he answers and tells me that he's at the beach and I'm like well I can't get out there because I don't have a ride, and he says oh well call if you're coming and I'm like I'm not fucking coming because I don't have a ride and he's like oh well call if you're coming, I swear I could cuss him out and I don't think he'd ever even notice. He doesn't even pay attention to me, and I don't know if it's just because he forgets about me or he's distracted or if he just doesn't like me or something but I'm so fucking pissed off right now. I can't spend this much time alone, I've been here by myself since 5 O'clock, I can't even fucking go to hollywood, when I finally decided to just walk there it was fucking dark outside. I just got pissed off at something and punched the wall and my hand fucking hurts, knowing me I probably fractured it or something. Ok, so there's my I'm so fucking pissed off right now post.