Feb 22, 2005 11:48
Damn you. I thought I could trust you. I was wrong. It has become blatantly obvious as of last night. I told you things I don't just tell anyone. I let you know something I shouldn't have. I believed you when you said you wanted to help. You didn't. You lie. Don't say you love me. Don't say you want what's best for me when you really want it for yourself. Don't claim to be one of my best friends. I believed you, there for a minute. I let my guard down. I trusted someone I didn't know that well. Damn me for being so fucking naive. You shouldn't trust people. People are created to let other people down. The minute you count on someone to do what they said they were going to do, to be there for you when you need it most, to help you when they said they would, it's all downhill from there. It seems like you can't trust anyone anymore. In the end, everyone has their own interests. No one will make the sacrifices they said they would. No one will admit their wrong. No one will tell you what is going on around you even though they know they should. No one will tell you the part of the story that makes them look like the bad guy. But when you find out, you better be damn sure that they'll be the first to kiss your feet and beg for forgiveness. It doesn't work that easy. My trust is not bought and sold as easily as you might have thought at first. I do not forgive easily. I do not forget. I can say I forgive you, but I don't mean it. I'll bring it up again and again and again. But I am not wrong this time. You are. What you did is low. I'm not sure I could ever trust you again. You said if I was mad at you, you would be a sad sad girl. Well that makes two of us then. You can't always get everything you want. You made your choice. I hope you're happy.