im dumd...so dumb it even astounds me!!!
well, i cant believe what ive done. i was thinking about it last night and i somehow managed to push away the one person i know i cant live without(sounds mellowdramatic i know) and i know exactly why i did it, i got a little freaked out and so i found some stupid, unimportant reason ot end it. i cant believe myself, i cant believe how selfish that was and in the end i dont think i really deserve you. i feel like the biggest idiot in the world, god i hate fucking hind-sight, just makes everything that already bad seem worse. i dont think ive cried so much in one night, record breaking. i miss you and i dont know what ill do without you.